past tense.

it all ended with a .
the end

It's like once you've been hurt, you're so scared to get attached again. Like you have this fear that every person you start to like is going to break your heart.
And i've faced it.times.shall i move on?

冷血動物

愛你是全身麻醉的手術 微弱的心電圖 因為你而起起伏伏 只要一點點人類的溫度 我就能被征服 我願賭就願意服輸 可是我心裡有數 我不是你的回憶錄 只是你的未知數 我翻了又翻你給的地圖 卻一直找不到我的歸宿 也許開始太倉促 才迷了路 為沒有結果的結果盲目 *我等了又等夢見的幸福 卻永遠只是你一根肋骨 我終於恍然大悟 不再上訴 只怪自己愛上的是一個 冷血動物 就算我變成一個拳擊手 我也下不了手 總不能找自己報仇 就算我乾了這手生啤酒 我也沒有對手 我也不能對你反駁 我們像兩個宇宙 我自甘著我的墮落 你一無你的所有 我翻了又翻你給的地圖 卻一直找不到我的歸宿 也許開始太倉促 才迷了路 為沒有結果的結果盲目 我哭得好累 想哭得很美 但哭得好痛 我翻了又翻你給的地圖 卻一直找不到我的歸宿 也許開始太倉促 才迷了路 為沒有結果的結果盲目 我等了又等夢見的幸福 卻永遠只是你一根肋骨 我終於恍然大悟 不再上訴 只怪自己愛上的是一個 冷血動物

（你不冷血 只是喜欢搞失踪 只好等啊 等）
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就算预测了结果不是自己希望的 但还是会抱着一点点希望 因为一个人的一句话。。。
就算我能再怎么做都好 我还是那个没出息的我 给不了什么。。。
-好想找个洞钻

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money money come come!
NUMBER NUMBER come come!
yes. i got ur number.
happy!!

=DD

天天好天！

注：本篇纯属本人自high篇！！！ 不想看者请闪先！ >\\\< 呵呵呵呵呵

哈哈哈 今天超超超超超开心的！！ 太阳突然的出现让我好high啊！还以为又等不到了。。立刻想去找太阳！就顺便上个厕所。发现只在附近罢了 途了一回儿 走过太阳身边 太阳突然翻过来 给了我特别甜的笑容~ 我都害羞了！！ >\\\< 但是好HIGH！呵呵呵 回来后 发现太阳还在那！就想办法接近 heheh 拿了人家的bakpoh sample 叉了像串串烧的给太阳吃 还作弄人家 *过程很短 但成功弄太阳笑* =D 再想要怎么和太阳说话时 就星来了！我们遇见了aunty！还曾经和她提起我们想认识太阳 （其实是我想。。eileen帮我罢了 coz aunty or 其他人都比较喜欢找她聊 ><) aunty当中间人 帮害羞的我们认识太阳 太阳还主动跟我们说话 哈哈 讲到话了！ 太阳好friendly噢！聊到一半，讨厌的人出现 就这样 拐走了太阳 >:D haihss but 好在过后我看见了太阳在放工后买水果 我还向太阳要 ：）太阳：eh，你要哈？Me：嗯 *点头* 太阳翻回头帮我选 也没问我要啥 哈哈 then真的买了 太阳：女人女人，你的！（我不懂是我听错不，也不懂zomok酱叫我 哈哈哈哈哈）拿了过后 太阳就回家了。 木瓜！平时我都不喜欢吃的 除非是切片的 （奇怪）但太阳买的当然要吃完阿！而且是切片的！哈哈哈哈 ♥ 很好！！有借口请太阳吃东西了！xD



好开心！好high的一天！！ 哇哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
天天好天！

sien..bu neng upload zhaopian! ><

1515.

想你了 一个我只知道一个字的名字 但又不缺定的 太阳
明天太阳会出现吗？
因该还是会等没影子

你把我灌醉~

烦 累 泪
走火入魔了
我是怎么了
无言以对
-1122am


。。。


只能天天的期待 远远的看
眼看 心动 手不动

到处找你的影子
却有缘的在Aone碰见了你
你对我的笑
让我开心得连想起都会high ：）
-4+pm

。。。


生病了 咳嗽
我有发烧吗？ 身体烫烫的
我不要！ ><
我要做工 撑到最后！
为了钱 为了我的光线
-1240am

HB to one of my ♥s.

(an old pic of Hong Shih)

I've forgotten it's her birthday today, thanks to facebook.>< oh well, cant really do anything too though. Just gonna give a simple post on her to wish her
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! ♥



aghhhh...sleepy and tired die. s l e e p .
good night.
-2days down-

unskippable.money money come come!

The first day or work, one word, t-i-r-i-n-g. Didnt get to sleep well the night before as I may be too nervous or excited or so, kept on waking up every few hours, and worry I might get late or so.== Other that that, we have been standing for about 11 hours as the tauke didnt prepare any better chairs for us. There's one there, but broken. We don't really get to sit on it. I dont really felt much of the pain and 'sourness' till now. Hopefully after i slept, they will get better tomorrow. arghhh i mok chair! i mok money!

My family them having dinner together too tonight to celebrate cuz's bday, but i cant join. Still told eileen that i think my mom surely will dapao for me, who knows, dad disappointed me jor by letting me know the answer in car just now. sad daoo...had kueh chap with eileen for dinner. ><


Although i'm slowly getting into the tough process of life on earning money, feeling tired, I do hope that my spririt keeps on burning with flames. Wherever there's sunlight shining upon, there's a way. I want to earn money THAT much! And also, learning the process of life. Somehow, this part is unskippable.
Jiayou moving on chele / valen / mx / wadever!! p(^.0)q

Good night! <3

where's my hope.

I felt so moody in a sudden since the afternoon till now. And it's impossible for having no reason for it. I'm just confused. Keeping silence and quiet. Felt so empty. Felt that what's the meaning for having my life now. Felt tired for it. Felt tired for myself. Felt tired for everything. TT.TT

I promised myself to stay strong for the upcoming work. If i succeeded the task, i can think about aussie, think about my wish, my life, and maybe further, my dream, for i have a few in mind. I just F**kingly hate myself for being able to think, without giving a single move. EFF me! when will i change when will i change~

Sometimes i do hope that there's a med or *touchwood* (dont feel like cursing myself now.) that i've lost all the memories and started all over again, with a better person. haihhs~


New year, New hope?

the green tin 'tea'.

It was the 2nd time i really drank it yesterday night. Cant manage to finish the whole tin, yet. Leen said maybe if we sat there longer, I can. hah! Although im not drunk and can't be, I rationally think that, making oneself drunk really cant solve a thing. You still have to wake up the next day, and face the same problem. You hide it, you'll face it. It's recycling. Dont wana crap so much. Wana be cool. But if it's drinking for fun, that's the other topic! hehehe! neway, im on my way getting used to it..on my way.

And, on my way to transform to...maybe, Valen Chai. *winkk.

26th. =D

Woke up around 11 something this morning. Got a text from Leen, then off to hang out with her and the gang after lunch. Went to Kbox, nice singers they were. At first we were qiao-ed to sing from 230-6pm, then because of F, we got the priviledge from her, which the waitress wanted to court her and gave us a free jug of drink and an additional 1 hour, which make us sang till 7pm! whee~ besides him, another waitress too, wanted to court F. jiajia laku. and brought us lots laughters! HAHAH!

After K, we went to Hornbill2 for our dinner and meet the others. aaahh expensive! but thanks to Leen lahr, sponsor me bout 50% today.heheehh thankiu! jiajia ate till very full tonight. I'm not suitable for this buffet kind of meal, jiajia bo hua. ><" We off to laodifang again after steamboat, meeting up the others and had a great chat there. a GREAT chat. jiajia laughed die us, and me. cute daoo~~ >\\\< it's been awhile since I truely laughed till I teared. :') Then later, mom called and off back home.

A great day that i've spent. It passed really fast too. ^^
Tomorrow, gonna off to Damai till 29th.
miss me miss you. xoxo

Christmas day!

It's YOUR day. Happy Birthday, Jesus! Merry Christmas. I didn't go to airport for sending grandparents and relatives off for their vacation. Stayed at home and sleep. hehe Then mom called, told me to get prepared, for having lunch at her friend's house, she got house opening thingy going on. Later, around 3pm, Eileen picked Yao and I up and we headed to Spring. At first we planned for K, but I think it's not worthy so we cancelled it. Then we headed to Xian Ding Wei. They got a break time? So we strolled around and waited till 430pm. We were lucky to get there first as it's full house after about half an hour time. jiajia kinteo. I think the food there is worthy for the fullhouse. idk, i just ate eileen's as she's the only who's eating. The portion is quite much, and the price..depends on ur own grade.(a SET of meal, range from 10+ - 20+.with a soup, a piece of abalone?, a piece of mushroom?, broccoli, and can choose with either white fragrance rice or minced pork rice.) Too bad there's no much choices and don't have snacks? or im blinded.== Took some emo christmas pics.me love! Leen and I was seriously in love on the ipodtouch! hahah siao liao.but think I wont get one, yet. Then, we got Leen's earring, and off home.

Continued with my drama at homie. We went to airport around 11+pm to pick bro home after. Went for Prosperity meal Mcfizz for supper while waiting bro. Share share lah..otherwise wa bui si.>< Bro got me, our family, Disneyland's polo and tee! wheee~ a bit girly type, but nemind lah.lol thanks bro!

Still, i dont have the christmas mood on.:( sorry for my beloved festival.


myft2d.

Chrismas Eve.

I woke up around 10 something today. Slept with tears the night before, and woke up with tears, again, and moved on with my day. Stayed at home for the whole morning and noon. (my 'aunty' jia jia lai gah jin zhey, chut chut lat siens and hek si wa!) Watched a taiwanesed drama, at first i thought it was so lame, i just wanted to finish zaizai's part, but then it really attracted me on the storyline, showing another reality face of the world. I still remember there's a part, my dad watched with me, i just hoped he will leave the screen and leave me alone there, as it was really a w k w a r d watching with him.heheheh

Then, in the evening, I went for dinner with parents at grandparents' house. I was kidnapped from there, to meet the gang up for dinner and so after. Richmond was fully booked, ended up we went to Westwood. After they had their dinner, we headed to pavi. Saw some familar faces sitting next to us, and saw something that he shoudn't do to someone, oh well, maybe I should say that im blinded for the nite. Quite comfortable staying at the corner there, drinking, grooving, and then countdown. Oh wait, the countdown part was it sucks or i was deaf. I didn't even heard any 10..9...8..7...2...1! kaboom! thing going on, just saw the balloons suddenly went off. == Had some blessing huggss and we just make ourselves high at the back. After awhile, some of us from the gang are leaving. Eileen and I met some siaonang, stopped by at the junction and looking at us. After we 'cut through' them, they followed and kept on looking at us and waved, then vroomed off. == drunk already kah? We headed to church and met up my parents there for the midnite mass. ahhh I have sin.sinSS!!!! >< Christmas mood? No. :(

unspeakable.

haihs

crap.

shit me.

what's wrong with me these days??!

i'm corrupted, badly.


有口难言!!!! urghhhhhhhh

emo.

i don't worth that shti.

i'm sorry.

don't ask. unspeakable.

='(

day out.

woo~ updating time. After leaving my fringe uncut for about a year, i guess, i finally went to cut it yesterday (friday night)at Hair Treatz. My hair grows damn slow, so my fringe was like, till my chin only (gege). I did took a picture before i cut it, but my noob phone didn't allow me to open the files, and i didn't know why, so, cant upload it up. oh well. Then, eileen, grace, yen, shuang and fang yu meet me there, and we strolled around Wan Jaya while grace had her hair cut there too. And off to Tong Shui. (memang enjoy life.) =D

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As for today (saturday), spent almost the whole day with him, ying, derek, and jj for just an afternoon. We went to Enter-K, didn't know why i'll shiver when i sang 'wei ni er huo' with him.(eee siasoi ><) Then we went to Swinburne Carnival, it was Swinburne Sarawak's 10 year old birthday (today? idk). We didn't really get to 'survey' around, but stayed in auditorium and watched them competed for the Tekken tournament. Took our 1st picture together too.hee Yumcha-ed together awhile, and he sent me to church. Late already, because....hehe Then, he came back to fetch me again. But i've waited for about half an hour outside. I really got scared when the cars were all gone and i'm all alone there. >,< but I can't get mad at him or scold him. =x boo~ and he got his reasons too.=x We cancelled our plan for movie, and off to Basaga. hee Me like the blackened fish fillet there, but the strawberry smoothies damn sweeeeet. Thanks him for the meal.^^ Met angel there too. After taking some pics, off back home. Great day. =)


me & ying. outside Basaga's toilet.





aha.randomly emo emo awhile.=B

i love K. karaoke.

hmm quite emo today. Firstly is because of him, but it's okay already. Then, I know that they've cancelled the K-plan is to let me settled my problem between me and her, I hope it can be done in the K room, as im afraid I'll talk till crying there, in public. But in the end, I manage to settle it in the other way. :) I'm sorry, it's my problem. Then, thinking about my own other problem again, my tears naughtily dropped while I was sitting in eileen's car, while listening to an emo song? Thought of asking them wanna see me crying not (in a fun way), but i didnt. hehehe


Not only like going to K because i like singing,
but also when im moody too. =')


Hope he gets well soon too.

rain from me.

Yesterday I cried, because I'm emo on seeing someone that ever hurt-ed me deepdeep. I felt hatred and sad at that moment, even felt lost. And tonight, I cried once again. I felt quite stressed. Not because of works, but other stuffs. Not a good idea to throw them out up here, all I can say is, I'm losing faith. Why can I be such a jerk sometimes?

O2, I gasps for you.

Im glad that I am alive, typing on this post. An hour and a half ago, I was suffering, gasping for air. All of this are happening because of my esurience (tamjiakness). I don't know what my mom was holding when she hopped into the car. It was cute. It's just like a mini version of an apple. Then my dad told me it was a China type of pear thingy. I thought it will be sweet, and of course juicy and nice. I took it over from mom, I smelt it, in instance it choked me. I didn't know why was it so, and gave it a small bite. At first I though it was okay, then mom told me to give daddy a try. I quickly bit another mouth, slightly bigger than my first bite, (coz Idk why, I don't really like to eat on something after my dad =x), after chewing for quite a sometime, I suddenly feel the uneasiness in my chest, throat, and nose. I asked mom for tissue, I threw out everything in my mouth, and my nightmare came. I started to gasp for air. I need to breath in hardly. I told my parents, I'm having breathing difficulty, suffocating. Mom and dad thought that I was 'playing' while eating, so that made me choked. I knew that, I didn't choke at all. After a few secs, I told them again, and yet they gave me the same reply. I knew that I'm suffocating, I don't even have the energy to speak to them, and I can feel that dad was looking on the rear mirror non-stop to get my view in front of him when he's driving home. I knew that it wasn't a joke. I'm so scared that something might happened to me, thinking that, what if I can't stand it for tonight? *touchwood* After home, I still cant breath normally, they drove me to Kuching Specialist, to 'puff' (for Asthmatic patient, if only they need it). But I didnt do it, we walked to a kopitiam nearby, and i drank half a cup of hot milo. After sitting for some moment there and in the car, I felt little better, and back to home again. And I'm thinking of someone and something at that moment too. So now, I'm glad that I'm sitting here in front of my lappie, and breathe normally. (still got a little bit of uneasy feeling.)

[idk that the fruit was marinated with some kind of vinegar thingy, maybe that's why it numbs or somehow contracts my muscle in my throat..or something? Makes me suffocating. In conclusion, Eat With Small Bites. LOL and of course, no tamjiakness.]



[[ohya, tonight is the very first time I'm saying (writing) ILY to biggie bro in his b'day card. ohh touched sei. LOL]]

Rock the 70's!!

haa~ Finally got my blog a new layout! I'm lovin' it. ohh that sounds familiar, eh? Back to the topic, actually I just thought of changing my fonts stuff in 'design', who knows, I had found out 'template designer' with a 'new!' word beside it, itchy fingers, I clicked into it and woohlala, 'explored' this layouts stuff. Yeah, guess I'm outdated already. >,< But who cares, I'm loving this layout.

It has a strong liking feel from me, a vintage kind of feel, I love vintage style! And from what I see, it somehow makes my posts to appear like a story, or movie, which is told, like hundreds of years ago or from your grandma. hmm guess I think too much. haha But seriously, the feel is there.


i like this editing. i thought of editing a pic of me leaning against the wall, beside the stairs. hahaha wait and see.

And seriously, I plan to print out and paste these kinds of vintage movie posters on one of the walls or a corner in my room / office room (if i own one) / house in the future. It would be cool enough to be a background for black n white or serpia photo-shooting. Rock the 70's!!
Here's some examples.











[i don't know whether these movies do exist not, i dont care much, i just go for the style.]

[Credits to loads of websites.]

傻女孩，心疼。。 自备tissue.

老公啊，我们什么时候能结婚啊？ “老公啊，我们什么时候能结婚啊？”女人一脸好奇的问，从声音分辨，她是很轻快的询问！他们在一起时间不久，两年而已，相处两年的情侣到处都是，随便就能抓出一大把，而现在的人，能有几个在交往的时候考虑结婚的？
“现在工作上也没什么突破，过两年吧！”男人轻轻柔柔道！
“哦！”没有失落亦没有兴奋，似乎预料中！
“老公啊，那假如有孩子了怎么办？”
“你有了？”男人严肃的握住女人的手，眼神犀利的盯住她！
“你抓痛我了啦！”女人喊了出来.“我是问问而已，有了我会告诉你的！”
“老婆，你记得，以我们现在并不适合要孩子，经济上也许可以不用顾忌但是心理上还无法接受，养育一个孩子不是养育一只小宠物那么简单；如果有了要告诉我，我会陪你去医院的，明白吗？”听了女人的话，男人放下心来，也柔下声音来对女人说着自己的观点！
“你放心好了啦，我不会那么不注意的，即便是有了也不会瞒你的，嘿嘿！”女人清爽的声音再度响起！但在心底，女人不知道是否该赞同男人的话，彼此工作其实都不错也算稳定；已经多次思考过，男人只是交往初期提到过结婚，而当彼此交往变得稳定后就没有涉及过婚姻；女人虽然大大咧咧但不是真的傻！其实真不知道他们之间的问题到底出在哪？是不爱吗？虽然感觉不到爱却也没感觉到哪不爱，也许是时间让彼此都沉静了！现在他们住的房子，一半是女人出钱按揭的；她习惯平衡！平日逛街，他也从来没有陪过她，她从来不觉得有什么不舒服，毕竟习惯自娱是最容易快乐的方式，这时候却想到这个动作是否也能衡量他的感情。

“老公啊，今天你陪我逛街好不好？你还从来没陪我上过街呢！”女人撒娇的说.

“忙呢！乖，怎么今天想到要我陪了？”男人漫不经心的问！
“那你要不要嘛？”
“自己去吧，要买什么自己去提款就是！”男人的眼光始终专注在文件上！
“老公，我突然想嫁给你了，怎么办？”清纯美丽的小脸上闪亮的大眼无辜的望着男人；这句话把男人的注意力拉回到她身上。男人望着眼前这个没被现实的残忍划下太多痕迹的女子，隐隐的不耐与无力！
“那张纸对你来说是什么意义？”男人放下手上的工作打算和女人好好的谈一次！
“不知道！想和你结婚跟那张纸有牵连吗？”
“你想结婚不就是想要那张纸吗？”男人牵动了下眉。
“如果你那样想也可以啦，你有没有想过和我结婚？其实也是在问你的未来有没有把我算在内！”依然是轻快的声音。
“从一开始我就是打算和你一直走下去的，你不会不明白。”男人间接的回答。
“你从来没有直接的回答过我的问题耶，不管是怎样的问题都好！”女人把声音放到很嗲；“好了啦，不跟你讨论了，免得气死我自己！嘻嘻，那我自己去逛街啦，不要你陪，哼！”话音一落，她拿起包以轻快的姿态走出房间！
身后的门一关上，原本笑意盈盈的脸瞬间沉下来，换上一脸苍白与哀愁，眸底有着让人捕捉不住的幽晦迷离！迈出脚步，缓缓的走在人潮拥挤的路上，脑子里一片空白却也塞满了思绪，一直都以为自己是很快就能过渡伤害放大欢乐的开心着，这次用尽了力气，却做不到；泪水直流！有的时候不甘愿输给命运却不得不屈服于宿命！

快乐的妖精这会，不快乐！哭够了，收起眼泪扬起笑脸，冲到步行街给心爱的他选了十套西服十件衬衣十条领带十个胸针十双袜子十双鞋子，信用卡几乎被刷暴，但是她笑得看不到眼！这时候的她，又是一个精灵，能感染人的精灵！

东西太多扛不了，只好打车回去！得意洋洋的向他炫耀自己的战绩，他看到那么多的衣服，嘴角边隐隐的抽搐，看着身旁这个做事向来一鸣惊人的她不知做何反应！
“老公啊，这些都我挑的，不错吧？”看着自己挑的西服她自我陶醉，对自己的眼光她向来自信！
“老公啊，这些衣服记得已经慢慢穿哦，今天看到好看的心血来潮就帮你买了！哼，你要敢说一个不喜欢的字眼，我就让你吃不了兜着走，听到没？”插着腰威胁，故意板起那张娇滴滴的脸！
“好！我不说不喜欢，但是你买这么干什么？你怎么总是那么浪费！”男人语带指责。
“哎呀啦，老公，反正都已经买了你骂我也没用啊！你就多疼我一点也喜欢上这些衣服吧，好不好嘛？”撒娇的摇着他的手，一脸的委屈状！他回她一个无奈的眼神，揉揉她的头发；
“好好好！你呀，以后记得别这样了听到没？否则就算你撒娇我一样不饶哦！”
“恩恩恩恩！”拼命的摇晃着脑袋！
嘿嘿．．．嬉嬉．．．”女人一直在咧着嘴傻笑个不停，男人见状亦拉开嘴笑了出来，他的女人太可爱了，和个孩子一样无忧，也有成熟女人的知性；有“妻”如她，还有什么不满足？他在心里也在琢磨着见家长的事，一直都不再提起结婚的事只是想给她一个惊喜，当初在一起的时候，他就下定决心娶她！



“老公啊，我这个月回家去陪我妈妈好不好？毕业到现在我都没有在家好好呆过呢，妈妈好想我了，我怕弟弟娶到的老婆欺负我妈，我要回去好好‘教育’弟弟去！”晚上的时候她楼着他，手在他身上挠着痒痒，他边逃开他的魔爪，边取笑：“你终于有良心记起妈妈啦？”

“嬉嬉，人家我可是乖乖女咧！老公，我买了明天中午的机票，这段时间你可要好好照顾自己哦！”
“原来你是有计谋的啊，我说你怎么忽然对我那么好！”男人假装凶神恶煞！
“哈哈，你装的都不像了啦！讨厌...”
笑声溢满整个世界！
半个月过去，男人耐不住没有女人在身边的空寂，思念她的调皮，想念她的体温；拨通她电话，男人细声细语的磨女人赶快买票回来！电话里她清爽如银铃般的笑声回荡在整个脑海里令他眼圈犯红！
“老婆，你回来好不好？我们结婚吧！”
电话另一头刹那静如死寂！“你，不是不想娶我的吗？”沉默过后，女人轻轻的问！
“我不是不想，我是想在适当的时候给你一个惊喜，只是还是熬不过思念先说了！”男人解释着！
“嬉嬉，好啊，你等我回去好不好？”女人恢复精灵样！似乎得到了全世界一样！
继续半个月过去了，男人见女人迟迟不归，再次拨通电话；这回电话响了好久才被接起，却是女人的弟弟接的，男人询问他女人怎么还没回来，弟弟说她那里还需要处理点事，还没那么快能走开，告知很快就回，请他别挂心！

再半个月后，男人接到来自女人弟弟的电话，电话里，弟弟让他马上过他们家去，说女人有事！男人吓到了，定好机票如箭般飞奔机场！
到了x市，女人的弟弟接机，弟弟一眼就认出男人，一路沉默的把男人领到医院；不祥的预感笼罩着男人，病房门开，女人瘦弱苍白的脸震撼住男人，心猛的被狠狠的揪了一把，绞痛难耐！拖着软无力的腿，迈到紧闭双眼的女人身边，用手，轻轻的抚着那熟悉的脸颊，一下一下的抚摸着！
“姐姐胃癌晚期，拖了两个月了！”弟弟在一旁轻轻说着，女人的父母眼圈瞬间又泛红！
这个意外，真的太意外了，意外到连怎么回事都弄不清楚，意外到他感觉自己是在云端！胃癌，原来女人总是说没胃口总是不吃东西，说减肥是女人的终身事业，这一切都是借口，他责怪自己怎么就没用心去观察过；怪自己那么大意让女人独自撑着这最难熬的日子！女人去天堂后的半个月！从女人住的那个城市寄来一封信.

男人看着熟悉的字体,浑身颤抖：

亲爱的老公：
一定在想我了,是吗？一定是的.我在天堂都感觉到了呢！
老公啊，你说想和我结婚，真的好感动哦！原本以为你只是想和我在一起并没有和我共度一生的想法！老公，谢谢你的爱！和你在一起啊，真的是世上最幸福的事呢！每天早上醒来你都会喊手麻 ,嬉嬉，知道吗？老公，这是最最感动最最记忆犹新的片刻，在家的这些日子我都睡不着，没有你的手臂当枕头没有你的怀抱当港湾；但是我不后悔，我不愿意你看到我被病魔折磨的不成人形的样子，我相信换你你也不会让我看到自己痛苦的一面！老公，原谅我，以后只能在天上笑给你听了！

老公啊，一年前，我是多么希望时间能够定格，多么想永远永远都把你铭记于心底,但是发现怎么看你都看不够，我不知道要怎么做才能让心里舒服点，我知道你爱听我笑的声音，其实我自己也好喜欢自己的笑呢，所以就天天笑，让你永远都记得我，是不是好自私？我怕我走了之后你把我的一切都尘封进一个连碰都不会去触碰的角落里，我好怕，怕在那里我会冷，所以就用爱让你对我刻骨铭心！我把每天当成最后一天来过，所以，够了，今生有你，够了！

老公,上次帮你买的衣服袜子鞋子，你每年在我离开的那天穿上一套去看我好不好？十套，那就是十年，十年里，你只能用十天的时间想我，在特定的那天里，你才可以想起我也不准不想我，你知道我喜欢紫色玫瑰花，记得去找到哦，我对我老公可是很有信心的呢！记得，一年就是那一天能穿，别的时候不要去碰那些服装，如果你忘记了，那么在你老之后看到那些衣服，也许能想起我的这个要求呢！

嬉嬉，以后你娶老婆了，记得在那天的时候带来给我看，但是不要告诉她我是谁，是女人都会介意的，就说．．．呃．．．就说我是你的青梅竹马好不好？我好羡慕那些青梅竹马长大的人哦！以后你娶老婆了，那她就是“咱老婆”，你要对咱老婆好哦，就像对我这样，因为我在天上看着呢；虽然我会哭会吃醋，但是我更不舍得女孩子伤心；下辈子用力用力的缠你一辈子，直到老去！
老公,那次我任性和你提分手.但是现在的你一定也是在哭，对吗？不只是眼睛哭，帮我笑完今生，好吗？从现在开始，不要悲哀不要消沉；想我只要用十年里的十天；十年后把我从生命里彻底清除，我自私，但是我怕我的自私让你恨我；所以我就赖你十年，就十年好不好？十年，我们就真的忘记彼此，期待来生！已经在履行约定的傻孩子 .泪滴湿了信纸，男人痛哭失声！天渐渐的暗了，黑了，窗外灯光斜射了进来，男人整理好情绪；“老婆，我记得你十年，想你用十天，来生还你一辈子！”轻轻的，对着天际呢喃
.学会珍惜！
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