where's my hope.

I felt so moody in a sudden since the afternoon till now. And it's impossible for having no reason for it. I'm just confused. Keeping silence and quiet. Felt so empty. Felt that what's the meaning for having my life now. Felt tired for it. Felt tired for myself. Felt tired for everything. TT.TT

I promised myself to stay strong for the upcoming work. If i succeeded the task, i can think about aussie, think about my wish, my life, and maybe further, my dream, for i have a few in mind. I just F**kingly hate myself for being able to think, without giving a single move. EFF me! when will i change when will i change~

Sometimes i do hope that there's a med or *touchwood* (dont feel like cursing myself now.) that i've lost all the memories and started all over again, with a better person. haihhs~


New year, New hope?