It was the 2nd time i really drank it yesterday night. Cant manage to finish the whole tin, yet. Leen said maybe if we sat there longer, I can. hah! Although im not drunk and can't be, I rationally think that, making oneself drunk really cant solve a thing. You still have to wake up the next day, and face the same problem. You hide it, you'll face it. It's recycling. Dont wana crap so much. Wana be cool. But if it's drinking for fun, that's the other topic! hehehe! neway, im on my way getting used to it..on my way.
And, on my way to transform to...maybe, Valen Chai. *winkk.
Thursday, December 30
Monday, December 27
26th. =D
Woke up around 11 something this morning. Got a text from Leen, then off to hang out with her and the gang after lunch. Went to Kbox, nice singers they were. At first we were qiao-ed to sing from 230-6pm, then because of F, we got the priviledge from her, which the waitress wanted to court her and gave us a free jug of drink and an additional 1 hour, which make us sang till 7pm! whee~ besides him, another waitress too, wanted to court F. jiajia laku. and brought us lots laughters! HAHAH!
After K, we went to Hornbill2 for our dinner and meet the others. aaahh expensive! but thanks to Leen lahr, sponsor me bout 50% today.heheehh thankiu! jiajia ate till very full tonight. I'm not suitable for this buffet kind of meal, jiajia bo hua. ><" We off to laodifang again after steamboat, meeting up the others and had a great chat there. a GREAT chat. jiajia laughed die us, and me. cute daoo~~ >\\\< it's been awhile since I truely laughed till I teared. :') Then later, mom called and off back home.
A great day that i've spent. It passed really fast too. ^^
Tomorrow, gonna off to Damai till 29th.
miss me miss you. xoxo
After K, we went to Hornbill2 for our dinner and meet the others. aaahh expensive! but thanks to Leen lahr, sponsor me bout 50% today.heheehh thankiu! jiajia ate till very full tonight. I'm not suitable for this buffet kind of meal, jiajia bo hua. ><" We off to laodifang again after steamboat, meeting up the others and had a great chat there. a GREAT chat. jiajia laughed die us, and me. cute daoo~~ >\\\< it's been awhile since I truely laughed till I teared. :') Then later, mom called and off back home.
A great day that i've spent. It passed really fast too. ^^
Tomorrow, gonna off to Damai till 29th.
miss me miss you. xoxo
Sunday, December 26
Christmas day!
It's YOUR day. Happy Birthday, Jesus! Merry Christmas. I didn't go to airport for sending grandparents and relatives off for their vacation. Stayed at home and sleep. hehe Then mom called, told me to get prepared, for having lunch at her friend's house, she got house opening thingy going on. Later, around 3pm, Eileen picked Yao and I up and we headed to Spring. At first we planned for K, but I think it's not worthy so we cancelled it. Then we headed to Xian Ding Wei. They got a break time? So we strolled around and waited till 430pm. We were lucky to get there first as it's full house after about half an hour time. jiajia kinteo. I think the food there is worthy for the fullhouse. idk, i just ate eileen's as she's the only who's eating. The portion is quite much, and the price..depends on ur own grade.(a SET of meal, range from 10+ - 20+.with a soup, a piece of abalone?, a piece of mushroom?, broccoli, and can choose with either white fragrance rice or minced pork rice.) Too bad there's no much choices and don't have snacks? or im blinded.== Took some emo christmas pics.me love! Leen and I was seriously in love on the ipodtouch! hahah siao liao.but think I wont get one, yet. Then, we got Leen's earring, and off home.
Continued with my drama at homie. We went to airport around 11+pm to pick bro home after. Went for Prosperity meal Mcfizz for supper while waiting bro. Share share lah..otherwise wa bui si.>< Bro got me, our family, Disneyland's polo and tee! wheee~ a bit girly type, but nemind lah.lol thanks bro!
Still, i dont have the christmas mood on.:( sorry for my beloved festival.
myft2d.
Continued with my drama at homie. We went to airport around 11+pm to pick bro home after. Went for Prosperity meal Mcfizz for supper while waiting bro. Share share lah..otherwise wa bui si.>< Bro got me, our family, Disneyland's polo and tee! wheee~ a bit girly type, but nemind lah.lol thanks bro!
Still, i dont have the christmas mood on.:( sorry for my beloved festival.
myft2d.
Chrismas Eve.
I woke up around 10 something today. Slept with tears the night before, and woke up with tears, again, and moved on with my day. Stayed at home for the whole morning and noon. (my 'aunty' jia jia lai gah jin zhey, chut chut lat siens and hek si wa!) Watched a taiwanesed drama, at first i thought it was so lame, i just wanted to finish zaizai's part, but then it really attracted me on the storyline, showing another reality face of the world. I still remember there's a part, my dad watched with me, i just hoped he will leave the screen and leave me alone there, as it was really a w k w a r d watching with him.heheheh
Then, in the evening, I went for dinner with parents at grandparents' house. I was kidnapped from there, to meet the gang up for dinner and so after. Richmond was fully booked, ended up we went to Westwood. After they had their dinner, we headed to pavi. Saw some familar faces sitting next to us, and saw something that he shoudn't do to someone, oh well, maybe I should say that im blinded for the nite. Quite comfortable staying at the corner there, drinking, grooving, and then countdown. Oh wait, the countdown part was it sucks or i was deaf. I didn't even heard any 10..9...8..7...2...1! kaboom! thing going on, just saw the balloons suddenly went off. == Had some blessing huggss and we just make ourselves high at the back. After awhile, some of us from the gang are leaving. Eileen and I met some siaonang, stopped by at the junction and looking at us. After we 'cut through' them, they followed and kept on looking at us and waved, then vroomed off. == drunk already kah? We headed to church and met up my parents there for the midnite mass. ahhh I have sin.sinSS!!!! >< Christmas mood? No. :(
Then, in the evening, I went for dinner with parents at grandparents' house. I was kidnapped from there, to meet the gang up for dinner and so after. Richmond was fully booked, ended up we went to Westwood. After they had their dinner, we headed to pavi. Saw some familar faces sitting next to us, and saw something that he shoudn't do to someone, oh well, maybe I should say that im blinded for the nite. Quite comfortable staying at the corner there, drinking, grooving, and then countdown. Oh wait, the countdown part was it sucks or i was deaf. I didn't even heard any 10..9...8..7...2...1! kaboom! thing going on, just saw the balloons suddenly went off. == Had some blessing huggss and we just make ourselves high at the back. After awhile, some of us from the gang are leaving. Eileen and I met some siaonang, stopped by at the junction and looking at us. After we 'cut through' them, they followed and kept on looking at us and waved, then vroomed off. == drunk already kah? We headed to church and met up my parents there for the midnite mass. ahhh I have sin.sinSS!!!! >< Christmas mood? No. :(
Friday, October 15
unspeakable.
haihs
crap.
shit me.
what's wrong with me these days??!
i'm corrupted, badly.
有口难言!!!! urghhhhhhhh
emo.
i don't worth that shti.
i'm sorry.
don't ask. unspeakable.
='(
crap.
shit me.
what's wrong with me these days??!
i'm corrupted, badly.
有口难言!!!! urghhhhhhhh
emo.
i don't worth that shti.
i'm sorry.
don't ask. unspeakable.
='(
Sunday, September 26
day out.
woo~ updating time. After leaving my fringe uncut for about a year, i guess, i finally went to cut it yesterday (friday night)at Hair Treatz. My hair grows damn slow, so my fringe was like, till my chin only (gege). I did took a picture before i cut it, but my noob phone didn't allow me to open the files, and i didn't know why, so, cant upload it up. oh well. Then, eileen, grace, yen, shuang and fang yu meet me there, and we strolled around Wan Jaya while grace had her hair cut there too. And off to Tong Shui. (memang enjoy life.) =D
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As for today (saturday), spent almost the whole day with him, ying, derek, and jj for just an afternoon. We went to Enter-K, didn't know why i'll shiver when i sang 'wei ni er huo' with him.(eee siasoi ><) Then we went to Swinburne Carnival, it was Swinburne Sarawak's 10 year old birthday (today? idk). We didn't really get to 'survey' around, but stayed in auditorium and watched them competed for the Tekken tournament. Took our 1st picture together too.hee Yumcha-ed together awhile, and he sent me to church. Late already, because....hehe Then, he came back to fetch me again. But i've waited for about half an hour outside. I really got scared when the cars were all gone and i'm all alone there. >,< but I can't get mad at him or scold him. =x boo~ and he got his reasons too.=x We cancelled our plan for movie, and off to Basaga. hee Me like the blackened fish fillet there, but the strawberry smoothies damn sweeeeet. Thanks him for the meal.^^ Met angel there too. After taking some pics, off back home. Great day. =)
me & ying. outside Basaga's toilet.
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aha.randomly emo emo awhile.=B
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As for today (saturday), spent almost the whole day with him, ying, derek, and jj for just an afternoon. We went to Enter-K, didn't know why i'll shiver when i sang 'wei ni er huo' with him.(eee siasoi ><) Then we went to Swinburne Carnival, it was Swinburne Sarawak's 10 year old birthday (today? idk). We didn't really get to 'survey' around, but stayed in auditorium and watched them competed for the Tekken tournament. Took our 1st picture together too.hee Yumcha-ed together awhile, and he sent me to church. Late already, because....hehe Then, he came back to fetch me again. But i've waited for about half an hour outside. I really got scared when the cars were all gone and i'm all alone there. >,< but I can't get mad at him or scold him. =x boo~ and he got his reasons too.=x We cancelled our plan for movie, and off to Basaga. hee Me like the blackened fish fillet there, but the strawberry smoothies damn sweeeeet. Thanks him for the meal.^^ Met angel there too. After taking some pics, off back home. Great day. =)
me & ying. outside Basaga's toilet.
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aha.randomly emo emo awhile.=B
Wednesday, September 15
i love K. karaoke.
hmm quite emo today. Firstly is because of him, but it's okay already. Then, I know that they've cancelled the K-plan is to let me settled my problem between me and her, I hope it can be done in the K room, as im afraid I'll talk till crying there, in public. But in the end, I manage to settle it in the other way. :) I'm sorry, it's my problem. Then, thinking about my own other problem again, my tears naughtily dropped while I was sitting in eileen's car, while listening to an emo song? Thought of asking them wanna see me crying not (in a fun way), but i didnt. hehehe
Not only like going to K because i like singing,
but also when im moody too. =')
Hope he gets well soon too.
Not only like going to K because i like singing,
but also when im moody too. =')
Hope he gets well soon too.
Friday, September 10
rain from me.
Yesterday I cried, because I'm emo on seeing someone that ever hurt-ed me deepdeep. I felt hatred and sad at that moment, even felt lost. And tonight, I cried once again. I felt quite stressed. Not because of works, but other stuffs. Not a good idea to throw them out up here, all I can say is, I'm losing faith. Why can I be such a jerk sometimes?
Thursday, August 19
O2, I gasps for you.
Im glad that I am alive, typing on this post. An hour and a half ago, I was suffering, gasping for air. All of this are happening because of my esurience (tamjiakness). I don't know what my mom was holding when she hopped into the car. It was cute. It's just like a mini version of an apple. Then my dad told me it was a China type of pear thingy. I thought it will be sweet, and of course juicy and nice. I took it over from mom, I smelt it, in instance it choked me. I didn't know why was it so, and gave it a small bite. At first I though it was okay, then mom told me to give daddy a try. I quickly bit another mouth, slightly bigger than my first bite, (coz Idk why, I don't really like to eat on something after my dad =x), after chewing for quite a sometime, I suddenly feel the uneasiness in my chest, throat, and nose. I asked mom for tissue, I threw out everything in my mouth, and my nightmare came. I started to gasp for air. I need to breath in hardly. I told my parents, I'm having breathing difficulty, suffocating. Mom and dad thought that I was 'playing' while eating, so that made me choked. I knew that, I didn't choke at all. After a few secs, I told them again, and yet they gave me the same reply. I knew that I'm suffocating, I don't even have the energy to speak to them, and I can feel that dad was looking on the rear mirror non-stop to get my view in front of him when he's driving home. I knew that it wasn't a joke. I'm so scared that something might happened to me, thinking that, what if I can't stand it for tonight? *touchwood* After home, I still cant breath normally, they drove me to Kuching Specialist, to 'puff' (for Asthmatic patient, if only they need it). But I didnt do it, we walked to a kopitiam nearby, and i drank half a cup of hot milo. After sitting for some moment there and in the car, I felt little better, and back to home again. And I'm thinking of someone and something at that moment too. So now, I'm glad that I'm sitting here in front of my lappie, and breathe normally. (still got a little bit of uneasy feeling.)
[idk that the fruit was marinated with some kind of vinegar thingy, maybe that's why it numbs or somehow contracts my muscle in my throat..or something? Makes me suffocating. In conclusion, Eat With Small Bites. LOL and of course, no tamjiakness.]
[[ohya, tonight is the very first time I'm saying (writing) ILY to biggie bro in his b'day card. ohh touched sei. LOL]]
[idk that the fruit was marinated with some kind of vinegar thingy, maybe that's why it numbs or somehow contracts my muscle in my throat..or something? Makes me suffocating. In conclusion, Eat With Small Bites. LOL and of course, no tamjiakness.]
[[ohya, tonight is the very first time I'm saying (writing) ILY to biggie bro in his b'day card. ohh touched sei. LOL]]
Wednesday, August 18
Rock the 70's!!
haa~ Finally got my blog a new layout! I'm lovin' it. ohh that sounds familiar, eh? Back to the topic, actually I just thought of changing my fonts stuff in 'design', who knows, I had found out 'template designer' with a 'new!' word beside it, itchy fingers, I clicked into it and woohlala, 'explored' this layouts stuff. Yeah, guess I'm outdated already. >,< But who cares, I'm loving this layout.
It has a strong liking feel from me, a vintage kind of feel, I love vintage style! And from what I see, it somehow makes my posts to appear like a story, or movie, which is told, like hundreds of years ago or from your grandma. hmm guess I think too much. haha But seriously, the feel is there.
i like this editing. i thought of editing a pic of me leaning against the wall, beside the stairs. hahaha wait and see.
And seriously, I plan to print out and paste these kinds of vintage movie posters on one of the walls or a corner in my room / office room (if i own one) / house in the future. It would be cool enough to be a background for black n white or serpia photo-shooting. Rock the 70's!!
Here's some examples.
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[i don't know whether these movies do exist not, i dont care much, i just go for the style.]
[Credits to loads of websites.]
It has a strong liking feel from me, a vintage kind of feel, I love vintage style! And from what I see, it somehow makes my posts to appear like a story, or movie, which is told, like hundreds of years ago or from your grandma. hmm guess I think too much. haha But seriously, the feel is there.
i like this editing. i thought of editing a pic of me leaning against the wall, beside the stairs. hahaha wait and see.
And seriously, I plan to print out and paste these kinds of vintage movie posters on one of the walls or a corner in my room / office room (if i own one) / house in the future. It would be cool enough to be a background for black n white or serpia photo-shooting. Rock the 70's!!
Here's some examples.
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[i don't know whether these movies do exist not, i dont care much, i just go for the style.]
[Credits to loads of websites.]
傻女孩，心疼。。 自备tissue.
老公啊，我们什么时候能结婚啊？ “老公啊，我们什么时候能结婚啊？”女人一脸好奇的问，从声音分辨，她是很轻快的询问！他们在一起时间不久，两年而已，相处两年的情侣到处都是，随便就能抓出一大把，而现在的人，能有几个在交往的时候考虑结婚的？
“现在工作上也没什么突破，过两年吧！”男人轻轻柔柔道！
“哦！”没有失落亦没有兴奋，似乎预料中！
“老公啊，那假如有孩子了怎么办？”
“你有了？”男人严肃的握住女人的手，眼神犀利的盯住她！
“你抓痛我了啦！”女人喊了出来.“我是问问而已，有了我会告诉你的！”
“老婆，你记得，以我们现在并不适合要孩子，经济上也许可以不用顾忌但是心理上还无法接受，养育一个孩子不是养育一只小宠物那么简单；如果有了要告诉我，我会陪你去医院的，明白吗？”听了女人的话，男人放下心来，也柔下声音来对女人说着自己的观点！
“你放心好了啦，我不会那么不注意的，即便是有了也不会瞒你的，嘿嘿！”女人清爽的声音再度响起！但在心底，女人不知道是否该赞同男人的话，彼此工作其实都不错也算稳定；已经多次思考过，男人只是交往初期提到过结婚，而当彼此交往变得稳定后就没有涉及过婚姻；女人虽然大大咧咧但不是真的傻！其实真不知道他们之间的问题到底出在哪？是不爱吗？虽然感觉不到爱却也没感觉到哪不爱，也许是时间让彼此都沉静了！现在他们住的房子，一半是女人出钱按揭的；她习惯平衡！平日逛街，他也从来没有陪过她，她从来不觉得有什么不舒服，毕竟习惯自娱是最容易快乐的方式，这时候却想到这个动作是否也能衡量他的感情。
“老公啊，今天你陪我逛街好不好？你还从来没陪我上过街呢！”女人撒娇的说.
“忙呢！乖，怎么今天想到要我陪了？”男人漫不经心的问！
“那你要不要嘛？”
“自己去吧，要买什么自己去提款就是！”男人的眼光始终专注在文件上！
“老公，我突然想嫁给你了，怎么办？”清纯美丽的小脸上闪亮的大眼无辜的望着男人；这句话把男人的注意力拉回到她身上。男人望着眼前这个没被现实的残忍划下太多痕迹的女子，隐隐的不耐与无力！
“那张纸对你来说是什么意义？”男人放下手上的工作打算和女人好好的谈一次！
“不知道！想和你结婚跟那张纸有牵连吗？”
“你想结婚不就是想要那张纸吗？”男人牵动了下眉。
“如果你那样想也可以啦，你有没有想过和我结婚？其实也是在问你的未来有没有把我算在内！”依然是轻快的声音。
“从一开始我就是打算和你一直走下去的，你不会不明白。”男人间接的回答。
“你从来没有直接的回答过我的问题耶，不管是怎样的问题都好！”女人把声音放到很嗲；“好了啦，不跟你讨论了，免得气死我自己！嘻嘻，那我自己去逛街啦，不要你陪，哼！”话音一落，她拿起包以轻快的姿态走出房间！
身后的门一关上，原本笑意盈盈的脸瞬间沉下来，换上一脸苍白与哀愁，眸底有着让人捕捉不住的幽晦迷离！迈出脚步，缓缓的走在人潮拥挤的路上，脑子里一片空白却也塞满了思绪，一直都以为自己是很快就能过渡伤害放大欢乐的开心着，这次用尽了力气，却做不到；泪水直流！有的时候不甘愿输给命运却不得不屈服于宿命！
快乐的妖精这会，不快乐！哭够了，收起眼泪扬起笑脸，冲到步行街给心爱的他选了十套西服十件衬衣十条领带十个胸针十双袜子十双鞋子，信用卡几乎被刷暴，但是她笑得看不到眼！这时候的她，又是一个精灵，能感染人的精灵！
东西太多扛不了，只好打车回去！得意洋洋的向他炫耀自己的战绩，他看到那么多的衣服，嘴角边隐隐的抽搐，看着身旁这个做事向来一鸣惊人的她不知做何反应！
“老公啊，这些都我挑的，不错吧？”看着自己挑的西服她自我陶醉，对自己的眼光她向来自信！
“老公啊，这些衣服记得已经慢慢穿哦，今天看到好看的心血来潮就帮你买了！哼，你要敢说一个不喜欢的字眼，我就让你吃不了兜着走，听到没？”插着腰威胁，故意板起那张娇滴滴的脸！
“好！我不说不喜欢，但是你买这么干什么？你怎么总是那么浪费！”男人语带指责。
“哎呀啦，老公，反正都已经买了你骂我也没用啊！你就多疼我一点也喜欢上这些衣服吧，好不好嘛？”撒娇的摇着他的手，一脸的委屈状！他回她一个无奈的眼神，揉揉她的头发；
“好好好！你呀，以后记得别这样了听到没？否则就算你撒娇我一样不饶哦！”
“恩恩恩恩！”拼命的摇晃着脑袋！
嘿嘿．．．嬉嬉．．．”女人一直在咧着嘴傻笑个不停，男人见状亦拉开嘴笑了出来，他的女人太可爱了，和个孩子一样无忧，也有成熟女人的知性；有“妻”如她，还有什么不满足？他在心里也在琢磨着见家长的事，一直都不再提起结婚的事只是想给她一个惊喜，当初在一起的时候，他就下定决心娶她！
“老公啊，我这个月回家去陪我妈妈好不好？毕业到现在我都没有在家好好呆过呢，妈妈好想我了，我怕弟弟娶到的老婆欺负我妈，我要回去好好‘教育’弟弟去！”晚上的时候她楼着他，手在他身上挠着痒痒，他边逃开他的魔爪，边取笑：“你终于有良心记起妈妈啦？”
“嬉嬉，人家我可是乖乖女咧！老公，我买了明天中午的机票，这段时间你可要好好照顾自己哦！”
“原来你是有计谋的啊，我说你怎么忽然对我那么好！”男人假装凶神恶煞！
“哈哈，你装的都不像了啦！讨厌...”
笑声溢满整个世界！
半个月过去，男人耐不住没有女人在身边的空寂，思念她的调皮，想念她的体温；拨通她电话，男人细声细语的磨女人赶快买票回来！电话里她清爽如银铃般的笑声回荡在整个脑海里令他眼圈犯红！
“老婆，你回来好不好？我们结婚吧！”
电话另一头刹那静如死寂！“你，不是不想娶我的吗？”沉默过后，女人轻轻的问！
“我不是不想，我是想在适当的时候给你一个惊喜，只是还是熬不过思念先说了！”男人解释着！
“嬉嬉，好啊，你等我回去好不好？”女人恢复精灵样！似乎得到了全世界一样！
继续半个月过去了，男人见女人迟迟不归，再次拨通电话；这回电话响了好久才被接起，却是女人的弟弟接的，男人询问他女人怎么还没回来，弟弟说她那里还需要处理点事，还没那么快能走开，告知很快就回，请他别挂心！
再半个月后，男人接到来自女人弟弟的电话，电话里，弟弟让他马上过他们家去，说女人有事！男人吓到了，定好机票如箭般飞奔机场！
到了x市，女人的弟弟接机，弟弟一眼就认出男人，一路沉默的把男人领到医院；不祥的预感笼罩着男人，病房门开，女人瘦弱苍白的脸震撼住男人，心猛的被狠狠的揪了一把，绞痛难耐！拖着软无力的腿，迈到紧闭双眼的女人身边，用手，轻轻的抚着那熟悉的脸颊，一下一下的抚摸着！
“姐姐胃癌晚期，拖了两个月了！”弟弟在一旁轻轻说着，女人的父母眼圈瞬间又泛红！
这个意外，真的太意外了，意外到连怎么回事都弄不清楚，意外到他感觉自己是在云端！胃癌，原来女人总是说没胃口总是不吃东西，说减肥是女人的终身事业，这一切都是借口，他责怪自己怎么就没用心去观察过；怪自己那么大意让女人独自撑着这最难熬的日子！女人去天堂后的半个月！从女人住的那个城市寄来一封信.
男人看着熟悉的字体,浑身颤抖：
亲爱的老公：
一定在想我了,是吗？一定是的.我在天堂都感觉到了呢！
老公啊，你说想和我结婚，真的好感动哦！原本以为你只是想和我在一起并没有和我共度一生的想法！老公，谢谢你的爱！和你在一起啊，真的是世上最幸福的事呢！每天早上醒来你都会喊手麻 ,嬉嬉，知道吗？老公，这是最最感动最最记忆犹新的片刻，在家的这些日子我都睡不着，没有你的手臂当枕头没有你的怀抱当港湾；但是我不后悔，我不愿意你看到我被病魔折磨的不成人形的样子，我相信换你你也不会让我看到自己痛苦的一面！老公，原谅我，以后只能在天上笑给你听了！
老公啊，一年前，我是多么希望时间能够定格，多么想永远永远都把你铭记于心底,但是发现怎么看你都看不够，我不知道要怎么做才能让心里舒服点，我知道你爱听我笑的声音，其实我自己也好喜欢自己的笑呢，所以就天天笑，让你永远都记得我，是不是好自私？我怕我走了之后你把我的一切都尘封进一个连碰都不会去触碰的角落里，我好怕，怕在那里我会冷，所以就用爱让你对我刻骨铭心！我把每天当成最后一天来过，所以，够了，今生有你，够了！
老公,上次帮你买的衣服袜子鞋子，你每年在我离开的那天穿上一套去看我好不好？十套，那就是十年，十年里，你只能用十天的时间想我，在特定的那天里，你才可以想起我也不准不想我，你知道我喜欢紫色玫瑰花，记得去找到哦，我对我老公可是很有信心的呢！记得，一年就是那一天能穿，别的时候不要去碰那些服装，如果你忘记了，那么在你老之后看到那些衣服，也许能想起我的这个要求呢！
嬉嬉，以后你娶老婆了，记得在那天的时候带来给我看，但是不要告诉她我是谁，是女人都会介意的，就说．．．呃．．．就说我是你的青梅竹马好不好？我好羡慕那些青梅竹马长大的人哦！以后你娶老婆了，那她就是“咱老婆”，你要对咱老婆好哦，就像对我这样，因为我在天上看着呢；虽然我会哭会吃醋，但是我更不舍得女孩子伤心；下辈子用力用力的缠你一辈子，直到老去！
老公,那次我任性和你提分手.但是现在的你一定也是在哭，对吗？不只是眼睛哭，帮我笑完今生，好吗？从现在开始，不要悲哀不要消沉；想我只要用十年里的十天；十年后把我从生命里彻底清除，我自私，但是我怕我的自私让你恨我；所以我就赖你十年，就十年好不好？十年，我们就真的忘记彼此，期待来生！已经在履行约定的傻孩子 .泪滴湿了信纸，男人痛哭失声！天渐渐的暗了，黑了，窗外灯光斜射了进来，男人整理好情绪；“老婆，我记得你十年，想你用十天，来生还你一辈子！”轻轻的，对着天际呢喃
.学会珍惜！
不要让爱你的人受到一丝一毫的伤害！
不要等到失去了，才痛不欲生！
如果，你感动了，
请你一定要保存
让更多的人看到它！
让更多的人要学会珍惜！
[credits to FB]
“现在工作上也没什么突破，过两年吧！”男人轻轻柔柔道！
“哦！”没有失落亦没有兴奋，似乎预料中！
“老公啊，那假如有孩子了怎么办？”
“你有了？”男人严肃的握住女人的手，眼神犀利的盯住她！
“你抓痛我了啦！”女人喊了出来.“我是问问而已，有了我会告诉你的！”
“老婆，你记得，以我们现在并不适合要孩子，经济上也许可以不用顾忌但是心理上还无法接受，养育一个孩子不是养育一只小宠物那么简单；如果有了要告诉我，我会陪你去医院的，明白吗？”听了女人的话，男人放下心来，也柔下声音来对女人说着自己的观点！
“你放心好了啦，我不会那么不注意的，即便是有了也不会瞒你的，嘿嘿！”女人清爽的声音再度响起！但在心底，女人不知道是否该赞同男人的话，彼此工作其实都不错也算稳定；已经多次思考过，男人只是交往初期提到过结婚，而当彼此交往变得稳定后就没有涉及过婚姻；女人虽然大大咧咧但不是真的傻！其实真不知道他们之间的问题到底出在哪？是不爱吗？虽然感觉不到爱却也没感觉到哪不爱，也许是时间让彼此都沉静了！现在他们住的房子，一半是女人出钱按揭的；她习惯平衡！平日逛街，他也从来没有陪过她，她从来不觉得有什么不舒服，毕竟习惯自娱是最容易快乐的方式，这时候却想到这个动作是否也能衡量他的感情。
“老公啊，今天你陪我逛街好不好？你还从来没陪我上过街呢！”女人撒娇的说.
“忙呢！乖，怎么今天想到要我陪了？”男人漫不经心的问！
“那你要不要嘛？”
“自己去吧，要买什么自己去提款就是！”男人的眼光始终专注在文件上！
“老公，我突然想嫁给你了，怎么办？”清纯美丽的小脸上闪亮的大眼无辜的望着男人；这句话把男人的注意力拉回到她身上。男人望着眼前这个没被现实的残忍划下太多痕迹的女子，隐隐的不耐与无力！
“那张纸对你来说是什么意义？”男人放下手上的工作打算和女人好好的谈一次！
“不知道！想和你结婚跟那张纸有牵连吗？”
“你想结婚不就是想要那张纸吗？”男人牵动了下眉。
“如果你那样想也可以啦，你有没有想过和我结婚？其实也是在问你的未来有没有把我算在内！”依然是轻快的声音。
“从一开始我就是打算和你一直走下去的，你不会不明白。”男人间接的回答。
“你从来没有直接的回答过我的问题耶，不管是怎样的问题都好！”女人把声音放到很嗲；“好了啦，不跟你讨论了，免得气死我自己！嘻嘻，那我自己去逛街啦，不要你陪，哼！”话音一落，她拿起包以轻快的姿态走出房间！
身后的门一关上，原本笑意盈盈的脸瞬间沉下来，换上一脸苍白与哀愁，眸底有着让人捕捉不住的幽晦迷离！迈出脚步，缓缓的走在人潮拥挤的路上，脑子里一片空白却也塞满了思绪，一直都以为自己是很快就能过渡伤害放大欢乐的开心着，这次用尽了力气，却做不到；泪水直流！有的时候不甘愿输给命运却不得不屈服于宿命！
快乐的妖精这会，不快乐！哭够了，收起眼泪扬起笑脸，冲到步行街给心爱的他选了十套西服十件衬衣十条领带十个胸针十双袜子十双鞋子，信用卡几乎被刷暴，但是她笑得看不到眼！这时候的她，又是一个精灵，能感染人的精灵！
东西太多扛不了，只好打车回去！得意洋洋的向他炫耀自己的战绩，他看到那么多的衣服，嘴角边隐隐的抽搐，看着身旁这个做事向来一鸣惊人的她不知做何反应！
“老公啊，这些都我挑的，不错吧？”看着自己挑的西服她自我陶醉，对自己的眼光她向来自信！
“老公啊，这些衣服记得已经慢慢穿哦，今天看到好看的心血来潮就帮你买了！哼，你要敢说一个不喜欢的字眼，我就让你吃不了兜着走，听到没？”插着腰威胁，故意板起那张娇滴滴的脸！
“好！我不说不喜欢，但是你买这么干什么？你怎么总是那么浪费！”男人语带指责。
“哎呀啦，老公，反正都已经买了你骂我也没用啊！你就多疼我一点也喜欢上这些衣服吧，好不好嘛？”撒娇的摇着他的手，一脸的委屈状！他回她一个无奈的眼神，揉揉她的头发；
“好好好！你呀，以后记得别这样了听到没？否则就算你撒娇我一样不饶哦！”
“恩恩恩恩！”拼命的摇晃着脑袋！
嘿嘿．．．嬉嬉．．．”女人一直在咧着嘴傻笑个不停，男人见状亦拉开嘴笑了出来，他的女人太可爱了，和个孩子一样无忧，也有成熟女人的知性；有“妻”如她，还有什么不满足？他在心里也在琢磨着见家长的事，一直都不再提起结婚的事只是想给她一个惊喜，当初在一起的时候，他就下定决心娶她！
“老公啊，我这个月回家去陪我妈妈好不好？毕业到现在我都没有在家好好呆过呢，妈妈好想我了，我怕弟弟娶到的老婆欺负我妈，我要回去好好‘教育’弟弟去！”晚上的时候她楼着他，手在他身上挠着痒痒，他边逃开他的魔爪，边取笑：“你终于有良心记起妈妈啦？”
“嬉嬉，人家我可是乖乖女咧！老公，我买了明天中午的机票，这段时间你可要好好照顾自己哦！”
“原来你是有计谋的啊，我说你怎么忽然对我那么好！”男人假装凶神恶煞！
“哈哈，你装的都不像了啦！讨厌...”
笑声溢满整个世界！
半个月过去，男人耐不住没有女人在身边的空寂，思念她的调皮，想念她的体温；拨通她电话，男人细声细语的磨女人赶快买票回来！电话里她清爽如银铃般的笑声回荡在整个脑海里令他眼圈犯红！
“老婆，你回来好不好？我们结婚吧！”
电话另一头刹那静如死寂！“你，不是不想娶我的吗？”沉默过后，女人轻轻的问！
“我不是不想，我是想在适当的时候给你一个惊喜，只是还是熬不过思念先说了！”男人解释着！
“嬉嬉，好啊，你等我回去好不好？”女人恢复精灵样！似乎得到了全世界一样！
继续半个月过去了，男人见女人迟迟不归，再次拨通电话；这回电话响了好久才被接起，却是女人的弟弟接的，男人询问他女人怎么还没回来，弟弟说她那里还需要处理点事，还没那么快能走开，告知很快就回，请他别挂心！
再半个月后，男人接到来自女人弟弟的电话，电话里，弟弟让他马上过他们家去，说女人有事！男人吓到了，定好机票如箭般飞奔机场！
到了x市，女人的弟弟接机，弟弟一眼就认出男人，一路沉默的把男人领到医院；不祥的预感笼罩着男人，病房门开，女人瘦弱苍白的脸震撼住男人，心猛的被狠狠的揪了一把，绞痛难耐！拖着软无力的腿，迈到紧闭双眼的女人身边，用手，轻轻的抚着那熟悉的脸颊，一下一下的抚摸着！
“姐姐胃癌晚期，拖了两个月了！”弟弟在一旁轻轻说着，女人的父母眼圈瞬间又泛红！
这个意外，真的太意外了，意外到连怎么回事都弄不清楚，意外到他感觉自己是在云端！胃癌，原来女人总是说没胃口总是不吃东西，说减肥是女人的终身事业，这一切都是借口，他责怪自己怎么就没用心去观察过；怪自己那么大意让女人独自撑着这最难熬的日子！女人去天堂后的半个月！从女人住的那个城市寄来一封信.
男人看着熟悉的字体,浑身颤抖：
亲爱的老公：
一定在想我了,是吗？一定是的.我在天堂都感觉到了呢！
老公啊，你说想和我结婚，真的好感动哦！原本以为你只是想和我在一起并没有和我共度一生的想法！老公，谢谢你的爱！和你在一起啊，真的是世上最幸福的事呢！每天早上醒来你都会喊手麻 ,嬉嬉，知道吗？老公，这是最最感动最最记忆犹新的片刻，在家的这些日子我都睡不着，没有你的手臂当枕头没有你的怀抱当港湾；但是我不后悔，我不愿意你看到我被病魔折磨的不成人形的样子，我相信换你你也不会让我看到自己痛苦的一面！老公，原谅我，以后只能在天上笑给你听了！
老公啊，一年前，我是多么希望时间能够定格，多么想永远永远都把你铭记于心底,但是发现怎么看你都看不够，我不知道要怎么做才能让心里舒服点，我知道你爱听我笑的声音，其实我自己也好喜欢自己的笑呢，所以就天天笑，让你永远都记得我，是不是好自私？我怕我走了之后你把我的一切都尘封进一个连碰都不会去触碰的角落里，我好怕，怕在那里我会冷，所以就用爱让你对我刻骨铭心！我把每天当成最后一天来过，所以，够了，今生有你，够了！
老公,上次帮你买的衣服袜子鞋子，你每年在我离开的那天穿上一套去看我好不好？十套，那就是十年，十年里，你只能用十天的时间想我，在特定的那天里，你才可以想起我也不准不想我，你知道我喜欢紫色玫瑰花，记得去找到哦，我对我老公可是很有信心的呢！记得，一年就是那一天能穿，别的时候不要去碰那些服装，如果你忘记了，那么在你老之后看到那些衣服，也许能想起我的这个要求呢！
嬉嬉，以后你娶老婆了，记得在那天的时候带来给我看，但是不要告诉她我是谁，是女人都会介意的，就说．．．呃．．．就说我是你的青梅竹马好不好？我好羡慕那些青梅竹马长大的人哦！以后你娶老婆了，那她就是“咱老婆”，你要对咱老婆好哦，就像对我这样，因为我在天上看着呢；虽然我会哭会吃醋，但是我更不舍得女孩子伤心；下辈子用力用力的缠你一辈子，直到老去！
老公,那次我任性和你提分手.但是现在的你一定也是在哭，对吗？不只是眼睛哭，帮我笑完今生，好吗？从现在开始，不要悲哀不要消沉；想我只要用十年里的十天；十年后把我从生命里彻底清除，我自私，但是我怕我的自私让你恨我；所以我就赖你十年，就十年好不好？十年，我们就真的忘记彼此，期待来生！已经在履行约定的傻孩子 .泪滴湿了信纸，男人痛哭失声！天渐渐的暗了，黑了，窗外灯光斜射了进来，男人整理好情绪；“老婆，我记得你十年，想你用十天，来生还你一辈子！”轻轻的，对着天际呢喃
.学会珍惜！
不要让爱你的人受到一丝一毫的伤害！
不要等到失去了，才痛不欲生！
如果，你感动了，
请你一定要保存
让更多的人看到它！
让更多的人要学会珍惜！
[credits to FB]
Tuesday, August 17
i lost someone. not the body but the heart.
It has been 3 months since my last update. Well, it doesn't mean that my life is as white as a paper, it's actually the other way round. I got lot's of dots and doodles on my paper. Just that i'm lazy to visualize it.
Forget about the older past, I just wanna talk about the bad lucks I got these days. Not that I lose in gambling or anything, but worst, I lost someone, yet a Special someone to me for this lifetime. Not losing the body, but the heart. The memories we have together are amazzin' I can say. All of this will happen till it is like now are because of my selfishness. I usually follow what my selfish and egoistic heart want me to do, and it always lead to uncertainty act in the end, which makes me stay on a T-junction. Left or Right, or Not moving. Most of the times it fools me, navigates me to the Right path, where there is NO turning back, and signals me there's a short cut on the Left. So, makes me no turn back for my act. Get noted that, I'm a contradiction person. I struggle against my heart sometimes, which makes me cant understand what i want, and, myself.
Just now, I was feeling sad. I thought of wanting to text p for a few times. But I got no bravery. Thinking of, what's my status now, how come people will wana care about me anymore? Or some more my deal is none of pz business already. hmm I do miss p now. Im sorry. =( It's almost 3 years of d already, a sudden of 'normal friend' really collapses my heart. I need time.
Other than that, till now, I still dont wanna talk to my bro. I can bare his attitude no more. Really pissed me off. Need this little sis to bare him sometimes. Jeeez Im not complimenting on myself, but I don't really show my frustration or moodiness to my family or friends easily, unless I'm really tired of it or I want them to notice on my feelings. urghh Everyone do got their limitations okay??! Again, need time. But of course, I know it will be over. I wonder when can we get back to 'bro-sis-cuddling-in-a-mad-way' time again. Look on ur busyness, i guess it's hard.
Tonight got into an argument again. urgh dont wanna talk about it. == It's my 'behsongness' days. Tomorrow who's gonna fight with me again? I can be hatred again. @@
-lamy.
Forget about the older past, I just wanna talk about the bad lucks I got these days. Not that I lose in gambling or anything, but worst, I lost someone, yet a Special someone to me for this lifetime. Not losing the body, but the heart. The memories we have together are amazzin' I can say. All of this will happen till it is like now are because of my selfishness. I usually follow what my selfish and egoistic heart want me to do, and it always lead to uncertainty act in the end, which makes me stay on a T-junction. Left or Right, or Not moving. Most of the times it fools me, navigates me to the Right path, where there is NO turning back, and signals me there's a short cut on the Left. So, makes me no turn back for my act. Get noted that, I'm a contradiction person. I struggle against my heart sometimes, which makes me cant understand what i want, and, myself.
Just now, I was feeling sad. I thought of wanting to text p for a few times. But I got no bravery. Thinking of, what's my status now, how come people will wana care about me anymore? Or some more my deal is none of pz business already. hmm I do miss p now. Im sorry. =( It's almost 3 years of d already, a sudden of 'normal friend' really collapses my heart. I need time.
Other than that, till now, I still dont wanna talk to my bro. I can bare his attitude no more. Really pissed me off. Need this little sis to bare him sometimes. Jeeez Im not complimenting on myself, but I don't really show my frustration or moodiness to my family or friends easily, unless I'm really tired of it or I want them to notice on my feelings. urghh Everyone do got their limitations okay??! Again, need time. But of course, I know it will be over. I wonder when can we get back to 'bro-sis-cuddling-in-a-mad-way' time again. Look on ur busyness, i guess it's hard.
Tonight got into an argument again. urgh dont wanna talk about it. == It's my 'behsongness' days. Tomorrow who's gonna fight with me again? I can be hatred again. @@
-lamy.
Friday, May 14
i'm fish-ed.
yay! it's finally TODAY! but but, i'm frustrated coz i cant bring an empty mind, but a full of worrying thought with me over the opposite island. wtfish. i cant manage to do my assignment on time! (today) haihs~ i need to bring along my lappie, THIS fishin burden with me then. #%?#$@#@!! stupid asssss!!! but im the most stupid! coz im just slacking all the way last few days. blame no one but me.== and, i have yet done any packing. not a single piece of cloth nor innerwear in my luggage. u can see a moth is flying out when u open the luggage.@@ ohwell, i want to enjoy too! CAN I DONT CARE MUCH???? ='(
Wednesday, May 12
别阻止我用音乐来忘我！！
现在的心情真是pekchek
心情不好 想要安安静静（没人烦我）但同时把音乐的音响调高 炸房间地做assignment
又被老妈孔 说我吵死人
显 要做什么来发泄 弄自己心情比较好都不能
什么都被你控制 烦
我静静 今天再度躲房里！
今天也是我第四天没踏出屋外了
心情不好 想要安安静静（没人烦我）但同时把音乐的音响调高 炸房间地做assignment
又被老妈孔 说我吵死人
显 要做什么来发泄 弄自己心情比较好都不能
什么都被你控制 烦
我静静 今天再度躲房里！
今天也是我第四天没踏出屋外了
please keep the elasticity, guys.
Honestly, i got a complicated thought and feeling right now, after I read a few blogs from the design gang. It seems that for a week i have yet met them, something changed. From what i read, it seems the bond are getting looser between the gang. And eventually, if not for bungamin, i won't be getting to hang out with them oftenly, or won't have any news about them. Or what can I say, i'm a failure friend too, cuz i don't contact much with them when or after school everyday, or sometimes even when we are together, i'll be the quiet one. i'm sorry, i just cant make myself to join the topic sometimes, or i'm a boring type to u guys. im afraid, and hate the feeling too. what shall i do. i miss the moments, and i miss all of u. :'(
Tuesday, May 11
闭关 避关 我要长出蘑菇
今天暂时不闭关了 也不关机了 因zhabor信息我 要不然我也想关机了
昨天关上手机 呆在房里一整天 闭得好累
也有在逃避的意思吧
但也逃不掉什么
前天母亲节也呆在房里 哭一整天
看《海派甜心》 真是催泪的戏啊 or也许是我自己找不到理由 就顺便地哭
顺便想说 杨丞琳，我爱上了你！
昨天的午餐没吃 今天的早餐也没吃
发现最近虽然不算很迟才起床 但我都不下楼吃早餐耶
最近的生活好累 好累
都不想踏出门 我要长出蘑菇~
我要快点飞~
最好那几天的时间给我过慢点！！
不想那么快结束能让我拥有的欢乐时光 （但我知道快乐时光一定会比正常时光快过个八百倍！闷）
好想飞到远远的。。。
昨天关上手机 呆在房里一整天 闭得好累
也有在逃避的意思吧
但也逃不掉什么
前天母亲节也呆在房里 哭一整天
看《海派甜心》 真是催泪的戏啊 or也许是我自己找不到理由 就顺便地哭
顺便想说 杨丞琳，我爱上了你！
昨天的午餐没吃 今天的早餐也没吃
发现最近虽然不算很迟才起床 但我都不下楼吃早餐耶
最近的生活好累 好累
都不想踏出门 我要长出蘑菇~
我要快点飞~
最好那几天的时间给我过慢点！！
不想那么快结束能让我拥有的欢乐时光 （但我知道快乐时光一定会比正常时光快过个八百倍！闷）
好想飞到远远的。。。
Friday, May 7
生日快乐 我对自己说
刚好差一个月就是我19岁生日了
其实去年就想过不想庆祝了
因为某原因 还是举办了个party
今年呢 也许不举办party了
不懂原因 但想过想和someone special庆祝
但 无
so 也许自己过吧
其实去年就想过不想庆祝了
因为某原因 还是举办了个party
今年呢 也许不举办party了
不懂原因 但想过想和someone special庆祝
但 无
so 也许自己过吧
Wednesday, May 5
Have you seen it?
不知道为什么最近对‘爱情’满悲观的
也许是看太多‘网友们’都一直在更换status吧
single 〉in a relationship / in a relationship 〉single 之类的
什么都有 要不然就是换对象
一时和某某说‘老公/老婆，我爱你，永远都爱你噢！！永远都不会离开你！！！’
少在那里我爱你，爱着你，就像老鼠爱大米的了
几天后。。。便single。。 -,-"
请问你的永远就是这个定义吗？？ 我在怀疑你的小学。。。
觉得要找个能和自己长长久久的也难了
以前相信会实现的 如童话故事里的happily ever after般
但现在并不觉得了
连婚姻都能玩玩了 或是出现一大堆问题
无可否认，本人对婚姻没信心 对恋情更没信心 ：）
我是否想了太远了
但这的确是我现在的想法
最近emo满严重的
外表看似疯 内心想更疯
而讨厌烟的我 尽然想触碰它！
是不是傻了啊我
I'VE LOST FAITH...
也许是看太多‘网友们’都一直在更换status吧
single 〉in a relationship / in a relationship 〉single 之类的
什么都有 要不然就是换对象
一时和某某说‘老公/老婆，我爱你，永远都爱你噢！！永远都不会离开你！！！’
少在那里我爱你，爱着你，就像老鼠爱大米的了
几天后。。。便single。。 -,-"
请问你的永远就是这个定义吗？？ 我在怀疑你的小学。。。
觉得要找个能和自己长长久久的也难了
以前相信会实现的 如童话故事里的happily ever after般
但现在并不觉得了
连婚姻都能玩玩了 或是出现一大堆问题
无可否认，本人对婚姻没信心 对恋情更没信心 ：）
我是否想了太远了
但这的确是我现在的想法
最近emo满严重的
外表看似疯 内心想更疯
而讨厌烟的我 尽然想触碰它！
是不是傻了啊我
I'VE LOST FAITH...
Stay long and happy.
First of all, I feel blessed to wish my parents a Happy 28th Anniversary! It's really a long period of marriage I can say. Feel blessed for it. But on the other hand, I got own personal thought, which i'm not gonna spoil in this post, but next. Earlier on I was waiting happily for the dinner tonight, but, my stomach suddenly tortured me. I couldn't even force myself to eat, what more to say enjoy the food. duhh...
Anyway, stay long and happy together papi and mami~
Anyway, stay long and happy together papi and mami~
Sunday, May 2
我不炸鸡，我炸音乐！
今天下午的mood超糟的。气到飙泪。但也过去了，通常我生气也不超过一天的。。好惹吧？惹啦。。最多只会在第一时刻收到我发泄的‘粗’口成章罢了。；）（但也没那么粗啦。。LOL）
到最后也买到了speaker + woofer陪陪我的lappie！！ 谢谢笨砸明帮我选和接送我啦~ 有点不好意思。。 =p 终于可以炸房间，做assignment了！嘻嘻嘻 现在也很期待去狮城的那一天！因为baby satio在等着我去找他嘛~ 希望我相亲成功，能把他娶回家咯~~ *保佑保佑* =）
带我走，我要飞~~~
到最后也买到了speaker + woofer陪陪我的lappie！！ 谢谢笨砸明帮我选和接送我啦~ 有点不好意思。。 =p 终于可以炸房间，做assignment了！嘻嘻嘻 现在也很期待去狮城的那一天！因为baby satio在等着我去找他嘛~ 希望我相亲成功，能把他娶回家咯~~ *保佑保佑* =）
带我走，我要飞~~~
Saturday, May 1
Friday, April 30
a day with them.
I got no class for the whole day yesterday, due to the cancellation class for C&C. Benji aka bungamin has asked me to go to school to hang out with them. It's really a hot sunny noon. We met up at uni and bungamin drove me, Nata and Derek to Spring, for K box. It's my first time singing with them..hehe Then we took some photo shots and Derek recorded a video of 3 of us high-ing and jumping around the couch. hehehehh Nata and I got high with Avril Lavigne's Girlfriend.hahah siao liao~
Later, Damien came and joined us with his friend, Wen Jing, not sure with her name. :x Then we sang 'wei ni er huo' 3 rounds. repeat repeat and repeat.hahahh lml ^.^ lml First time heard them singing a rock song. We fooled around with the wallpaper near the toilet after. lmao lahr them.XD We then headed to the food court and grabbed some food. Damien left his car key on the chair, luckily bungamin saw it. And we thought of trick him, but somehow i missed the part how he found out he lost his keys. >,< We then accompany Nata to Ta Kiong for her biscuits-hunting. LOL and off to uni to get back my lonely Xiao Huang~ *im waiting Derek to post up the photos.i have none.*
Then, at night, Nata and Bungamin asked me to go yamcha with them. Bungamin came and picked me up. Bunamin and I met up with Damien, Nata and Derek at 4 Points. No, we ain't that rich. We just took there as a meet up place. Bungamin brought us to his so-called nice environment place. But when we arrived there, I was like... *o.0 whaaaat? romantic meh???* hahahahahh it's a place for having seafood and beers-people-place. hehe *sorry lahr bungamin* but he did say the place changed already. Then I suggested to go Day Dream or Isabella, coz i never been to Isabella too. So we headed there. Bungamin and I still got lost looking for the junction, and Damien them just following us.hahah But in the end we found it too. We went to Day Dream this time, coz we can't make up our mind to go which, as both were just opposite each other. Just had some chatting and drinking and eating there.
As usual, I didn't talk much in front of them. Maybe some of the topics I cant get into too, or im just quiet, cant socialize. i don't know. i'm afraid that im a boring person to them. *and i really got emo-ed coz of this issue.* ='(
Later, Damien came and joined us with his friend, Wen Jing, not sure with her name. :x Then we sang 'wei ni er huo' 3 rounds. repeat repeat and repeat.hahahh lml ^.^ lml First time heard them singing a rock song. We fooled around with the wallpaper near the toilet after. lmao lahr them.XD We then headed to the food court and grabbed some food. Damien left his car key on the chair, luckily bungamin saw it. And we thought of trick him, but somehow i missed the part how he found out he lost his keys. >,< We then accompany Nata to Ta Kiong for her biscuits-hunting. LOL and off to uni to get back my lonely Xiao Huang~ *im waiting Derek to post up the photos.i have none.*
Then, at night, Nata and Bungamin asked me to go yamcha with them. Bungamin came and picked me up. Bunamin and I met up with Damien, Nata and Derek at 4 Points. No, we ain't that rich. We just took there as a meet up place. Bungamin brought us to his so-called nice environment place. But when we arrived there, I was like... *o.0 whaaaat? romantic meh???* hahahahahh it's a place for having seafood and beers-people-place. hehe *sorry lahr bungamin* but he did say the place changed already. Then I suggested to go Day Dream or Isabella, coz i never been to Isabella too. So we headed there. Bungamin and I still got lost looking for the junction, and Damien them just following us.hahah But in the end we found it too. We went to Day Dream this time, coz we can't make up our mind to go which, as both were just opposite each other. Just had some chatting and drinking and eating there.
As usual, I didn't talk much in front of them. Maybe some of the topics I cant get into too, or im just quiet, cant socialize. i don't know. i'm afraid that im a boring person to them. *and i really got emo-ed coz of this issue.* ='(
Thursday, April 29
伊摸无罪
发现这个新的部落格都seldom有我emo的post耶。。其实前几天也有超emo的时刻，不开心，满想写的，但懒惰更新。。下次吧！I like to be emo sometimes! Emo is not that bad, it's just a person with full emotions and being sentimental. It is more preferable rather than cold-hearted people. Lastly, I'm an Emo. Bare with it.
Wednesday, April 28
Kick-Ass. ass kicked.
Hey you #@$$%!?%^!!! Stop messing around with me, or I'm gonna get my foot stick on your your ass! *Try me!
eleh~ lame me. This is not the 'kick ass' i'm going to say. It's.....
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Behold, a new and now showing movie is around towns. I watch it at MBO this afternoon with exian. It's a Wednesday, so we get our ticks for RM6 each. ^^ At first I thought it will be a noob, 'cheat kiddy' kind of movie. Well, i take back what I thought, it's actually a nice and funny movie out there. NOT kidish at all, 18SX and 18PL one, seriously. (don't let ur kids or lil sis/bro watch this) aiyerrr...hahahh! I like the effect from a scene too. damn cool! Well, am not going to be a spoiler here, and i'm lazy to be one too.heheh Just grab your popcorn and watch it urself. (i bought my snack at ta kiong, cheaper than 'up there' one mahh....^^) and I do hope there's part 2 for it. ;)
oya, want to talk about Shutter Island too. I watched it on last Sunday, with exian, ying and joseph. aha! At first this movie really made me want to have my nap in cinema, for the first time, seriously. (or maybe i'm tired too) The beginning was so boring and confusing. Ying and I can't really get the story until exian and jo explained to us. Till then, I found this movie good, I think that it really has a great storyline. Good job on confusing people, mr. director/novelist/any who! LOL It's fresh to me! The story i mean... and yeah! I found that Leonardo DiCaprio is soo 'mature' now till he really looks much different from the classic Jack already. >,<
Movie, is a part of my life.
-se7enpointsix.
2 days on counting~
eleh~ lame me. This is not the 'kick ass' i'm going to say. It's.....
v
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Behold, a new and now showing movie is around towns. I watch it at MBO this afternoon with exian. It's a Wednesday, so we get our ticks for RM6 each. ^^ At first I thought it will be a noob, 'cheat kiddy' kind of movie. Well, i take back what I thought, it's actually a nice and funny movie out there. NOT kidish at all, 18SX and 18PL one, seriously. (don't let ur kids or lil sis/bro watch this) aiyerrr...hahahh! I like the effect from a scene too. damn cool! Well, am not going to be a spoiler here, and i'm lazy to be one too.heheh Just grab your popcorn and watch it urself. (i bought my snack at ta kiong, cheaper than 'up there' one mahh....^^) and I do hope there's part 2 for it. ;)
oya, want to talk about Shutter Island too. I watched it on last Sunday, with exian, ying and joseph. aha! At first this movie really made me want to have my nap in cinema, for the first time, seriously. (or maybe i'm tired too) The beginning was so boring and confusing. Ying and I can't really get the story until exian and jo explained to us. Till then, I found this movie good, I think that it really has a great storyline. Good job on confusing people, mr. director/novelist/any who! LOL It's fresh to me! The story i mean... and yeah! I found that Leonardo DiCaprio is soo 'mature' now till he really looks much different from the classic Jack already. >,<
Movie, is a part of my life.
-se7enpointsix.
2 days on counting~
Tuesday, April 27
i want to be a bleach haired designer!! as if....
I saw a blonde gal with weird makeup.=x I think she will just look cool enough with the hair and without her makeup or just put on a cap. I too, hope to have the kind of short / shoulder length bleached hair someday. ahah. But, 90% to impossible. ='( 10% for imagining im having it to make myself happy bahr..maybe i can photoshop one someday. eleh~ tolong, sure doesn't suit me one. =="
Here are some pictures of a cool, pretty, stylish and talented ex-HK singer, but having her self-business as a fashion Tee designer and owner for her shop and also founder of her own brand 'Little Secret' in Taiwan now, who inspires me, WenDi. aha! My one-sentence way to introduce her. Bleach haired photos.
cool Blondies.
puurrrple.
awwwww, it's just the second day today. 3 days to go~
Here are some pictures of a cool, pretty, stylish and talented ex-HK singer, but having her self-business as a fashion Tee designer and owner for her shop and also founder of her own brand 'Little Secret' in Taiwan now, who inspires me, WenDi. aha! My one-sentence way to introduce her. Bleach haired photos.
cool Blondies.
puurrrple.
awwwww, it's just the second day today. 3 days to go~
kuching fooood.
Today afternoon is a funny and 'thrilling' day.aahahahahh *okay..keep it silent.and i'm sorry =|* I drive Albee, Lulu, and Wan Ting to Sunny Hill to get some icecreams. Well, it turn out not like what they've expected. hahah We just get our butts hot for about 10 mins and leave. We went to Song Kheng Hai for belacan beehoon and kompia. Unluckily, my excitement of introducing them Kuching's food has vanished when i find that both stalls are closed. ish! Then we just grab some food from the open one.
Then we went to Xiao Ba Wang to get some char sio bao, coz the zhabors say it's been awhile they have not eaten pork already.LOLL and i send them back uni. ahah. short story here, but funny day~
Then we went to Xiao Ba Wang to get some char sio bao, coz the zhabors say it's been awhile they have not eaten pork already.LOLL and i send them back uni. ahah. short story here, but funny day~
32bong?!!
It's Monday Blue-day. We, me, ying, fabian and stephani go up to somewhere near Santubong Resort, which we don't really know where. LOL Get up early, around 6.45am. Pack, and mom drives me to Swinburne to pick steph up. Have waited her for over half an hour or almost an hour there. lol" Then off to fab's house.
Since both me and fab have yet taken our breakfast, we went to somewhere around Satok to settle our tummy, and off to destination. All these while i thought that it will take around an hour to reach Damai, but i think it takes shorter time actually, and i'll be totally lost if it's me who gonna drive there.ahaha
We arrived around 11 something. Settled our things and get changed, and off to the pool! 'si gui' fab 'throw' 3 of us into the pool. He first grab ying and throws her in, then he comes to me, i tell him i'll get in myself, but he pushes me in in the end. It freaks me out that time when im in the water, really feels like drowning, i remember i put out my right hand so high and wave, like in the movie when someone is drowning. Luckily i can make myself to stand and the pool is just 1M deep. ish that guy! Then he 'lure' steph to come over too, after some 'hard' time, she finally approached and fab somehow drop her into the pool, i can see that fab doen't dare to 'do hard' on her, coz he says she's a princess.lols -,-" I enjoy myself in the pool although i cant swim, im surrounded with water, i enjoy the feel, it's relaxing, and the view is not bad.
Then we get up, and have our short and simple picnic. We walk to the beach after that. Just a short few hundreds metres of journey from the pool. The place is wonderful. We grab a seat where we got the whole view of the sand and sea, and also shadesss. fyi, the whole pool and beach are ours that time! coz we barely see a shadow of human there.LOL I enjoy that moment more. A sudden feel to be emo. I face the sandy beach and wavy sea, feel the breeze, covered with shades from the trees and nature. Feels so relaxing, and if there's the someone beside me to share with, how sweet can that be. ^^ (we scream at the beach before we leave there.first time.^^)
*feel my eyes*
heheee
i like this. ;p
ignore me.the main focus here is fab.lol
orang gila.
Later, we walk back to the pool again. And exian, joseph and cindy come to join us too. 3 of them come to Santubong here just to clean Exian's car tyres. =) coz he drives passed the road which gt cement on it, the mad guard there still scold them. AHAH Exian, why you always blur blur one?? heheehh We hang around at the pool for a moment. AND si fabian, again, try to throw me into the pool, but i refused and im too heavy. AHAH but somehow i get a tiny cut on my elbow. Then, i try to push him, he grab me, and once again, i fall into it again. -,- got the same feeling. geeezz
Later, we walk to the beach side again, waiting for the sunset. Feel nice to walk on the sand, and looking at the orangey-reddish sun and sky. Of course, we enjoy our time and take some nice pictures there. I take one too, with my name on the sand, and ask the lovely couple to hold their hands, with their back facing me, and the orange sky as the background. Emo right? eheheh I like it. But, the pics are not with me. Going to get them from Exian. Will post it up if im Not layzee. hehehh We take some fight-against-the-gravity-kind-of-pics too. ahah take few takes for it. XD Fun~
Then we drive back to Kuching around 7 something. And had our dinner together at After 4. Then parents pick me up at fab's house. It is really a tiring day, but fun in the end. I was too tired, and knock off at 11.30pm. Guai-nya~ =)
Since both me and fab have yet taken our breakfast, we went to somewhere around Satok to settle our tummy, and off to destination. All these while i thought that it will take around an hour to reach Damai, but i think it takes shorter time actually, and i'll be totally lost if it's me who gonna drive there.ahaha
We arrived around 11 something. Settled our things and get changed, and off to the pool! 'si gui' fab 'throw' 3 of us into the pool. He first grab ying and throws her in, then he comes to me, i tell him i'll get in myself, but he pushes me in in the end. It freaks me out that time when im in the water, really feels like drowning, i remember i put out my right hand so high and wave, like in the movie when someone is drowning. Luckily i can make myself to stand and the pool is just 1M deep. ish that guy! Then he 'lure' steph to come over too, after some 'hard' time, she finally approached and fab somehow drop her into the pool, i can see that fab doen't dare to 'do hard' on her, coz he says she's a princess.lols -,-" I enjoy myself in the pool although i cant swim, im surrounded with water, i enjoy the feel, it's relaxing, and the view is not bad.
Then we get up, and have our short and simple picnic. We walk to the beach after that. Just a short few hundreds metres of journey from the pool. The place is wonderful. We grab a seat where we got the whole view of the sand and sea, and also shadesss. fyi, the whole pool and beach are ours that time! coz we barely see a shadow of human there.LOL I enjoy that moment more. A sudden feel to be emo. I face the sandy beach and wavy sea, feel the breeze, covered with shades from the trees and nature. Feels so relaxing, and if there's the someone beside me to share with, how sweet can that be. ^^ (we scream at the beach before we leave there.first time.^^)
*feel my eyes*
heheee
i like this. ;p
ignore me.the main focus here is fab.lol
orang gila.
Later, we walk back to the pool again. And exian, joseph and cindy come to join us too. 3 of them come to Santubong here just to clean Exian's car tyres. =) coz he drives passed the road which gt cement on it, the mad guard there still scold them. AHAH Exian, why you always blur blur one?? heheehh We hang around at the pool for a moment. AND si fabian, again, try to throw me into the pool, but i refused and im too heavy. AHAH but somehow i get a tiny cut on my elbow. Then, i try to push him, he grab me, and once again, i fall into it again. -,- got the same feeling. geeezz
Later, we walk to the beach side again, waiting for the sunset. Feel nice to walk on the sand, and looking at the orangey-reddish sun and sky. Of course, we enjoy our time and take some nice pictures there. I take one too, with my name on the sand, and ask the lovely couple to hold their hands, with their back facing me, and the orange sky as the background. Emo right? eheheh I like it. But, the pics are not with me. Going to get them from Exian. Will post it up if im Not layzee. hehehh We take some fight-against-the-gravity-kind-of-pics too. ahah take few takes for it. XD Fun~
Then we drive back to Kuching around 7 something. And had our dinner together at After 4. Then parents pick me up at fab's house. It is really a tiring day, but fun in the end. I was too tired, and knock off at 11.30pm. Guai-nya~ =)
Tuesday, April 13
First assignment. Completed.
wohoo~ After rushing about 1 week, finally i'm done with my first assignment for both Design Studies and me as a design student. Like what Michelle said yesterday, after saw the print out, felt quite proud for them, and it's true. It's the first time for most of us to express our own concepts into posters. Done with the presentation today, quite relief. I was too nervous till everything gone blank in my mind when I was up there, just like the previous times. Got stuck in the middle, but manage to BLAA finished it. ;) *clapclap for michele for being able to done those.gege*
So this is my first poster. POSTER1. noname. sosad.
So my first poster, is about a basketballer trying to throw the ball into the net. My concept is that the basketballer, which is in black, represents everyone of us, whereas I replace the ball with an Earth instead of a basketball. The earth is larger than the net, so that it is ‘stuck’ on the ring of the net and it keeps the earth from falling. This is the idea of mine showing the way to protect the earth. But it is not well visualized, so I came out with the idea of 3R. There is a message that urges people to reduce, reuse and recycle. The net also acts as a bin. Since the earth, which acts as a ‘thing’, is larger, it cant be thrown into it, and have to apply on the 3R concept. So that the next generation can live in a better environment.
POSTER2. '...stop deforestation, experience the nature lively.'
As for the second poster, ‘stop deforestation, experience the nature lively’ is my theme. I get this concept quite meaningful as I make it a design of a child is looking on the nature or forest view through a laptop or television. There is a real nature’s image in the laptop and real image of a child for my poster while the background is all surrounded with cartoon drawn concrete buildings. This is to let the viewers focus on the real image and emphasize on my theme that if deforestation and construction continue, the future earth will no longer have enough trees around, so as to the children will not have the chance to view and experience the beauty of nature lively.
POSTER3. '...money or power is nothing without the earth.'
Lastly, the third poster, ‘money or power is nothing without the earth’ will be my theme. It is a simple design, but has meaning on it. Since most people nowadays are quite realistic and selfish, they care more on money then the only one earth. So I put a safe on the whole poster for my design, with the earth inside the safe, emphasizing that we should keep our earth save and protected too, and money or power is nothing without the earth. We cannot be a happy millionaire or powerful person without a healthy earth to spend with.
HEheh. i just C&P the description of my concepts from the Journal. I made my concept with the same title for 3 of them, but different themes. I know my english ain't good. My dad even said so.lol Rushing to done it bahr yesterday night. erh..don't wanna care it already. DONE! XD
So this is my first poster. POSTER1. noname. sosad.
So my first poster, is about a basketballer trying to throw the ball into the net. My concept is that the basketballer, which is in black, represents everyone of us, whereas I replace the ball with an Earth instead of a basketball. The earth is larger than the net, so that it is ‘stuck’ on the ring of the net and it keeps the earth from falling. This is the idea of mine showing the way to protect the earth. But it is not well visualized, so I came out with the idea of 3R. There is a message that urges people to reduce, reuse and recycle. The net also acts as a bin. Since the earth, which acts as a ‘thing’, is larger, it cant be thrown into it, and have to apply on the 3R concept. So that the next generation can live in a better environment.
POSTER2. '...stop deforestation, experience the nature lively.'
As for the second poster, ‘stop deforestation, experience the nature lively’ is my theme. I get this concept quite meaningful as I make it a design of a child is looking on the nature or forest view through a laptop or television. There is a real nature’s image in the laptop and real image of a child for my poster while the background is all surrounded with cartoon drawn concrete buildings. This is to let the viewers focus on the real image and emphasize on my theme that if deforestation and construction continue, the future earth will no longer have enough trees around, so as to the children will not have the chance to view and experience the beauty of nature lively.
POSTER3. '...money or power is nothing without the earth.'
Lastly, the third poster, ‘money or power is nothing without the earth’ will be my theme. It is a simple design, but has meaning on it. Since most people nowadays are quite realistic and selfish, they care more on money then the only one earth. So I put a safe on the whole poster for my design, with the earth inside the safe, emphasizing that we should keep our earth save and protected too, and money or power is nothing without the earth. We cannot be a happy millionaire or powerful person without a healthy earth to spend with.
HEheh. i just C&P the description of my concepts from the Journal. I made my concept with the same title for 3 of them, but different themes. I know my english ain't good. My dad even said so.lol Rushing to done it bahr yesterday night. erh..don't wanna care it already. DONE! XD
Monday, April 12
a hot but fun noon.
pfft. Today is a really hot day. I went to uni to pick up Albee and Michelle, and knew Wan Ting from them. At first we were quite shy, untill we had our lunch at Tarrot cafe we became sot ki. haha We got 'bullied' by the cafe, and the waiter always disturbed Michelle due to something. XD We had a long time waiting for our food. grrr Then Mike met us up to pass us his file and wanted us to print for him. It's cool that the table of five were from Jakarta, Sabah, Sibu, Miri and kuching! woot~ and I think Wan Ting knows Kenny Yong.
After lunch, Albee led me to Modka, which is near to '4 small' there for our printing. Took a little moment at there due to Albee's "eye".hahah Then i rushed home to get my mounting board and went to Techno Graphic opposite my home to look for our things. I went to pump oil too, 4 of us don't know how to pump.hahah Then Albee helped me. It's 4 something already, we rushed back to uni to meet up Mike and mount our posters. It was my first time stepping into the hostel too. Quite nice actually. They asked me want to move in into hostel not. HAHA After some time done with the mounting thing, Mike asked us to go uni's open-air yumcha. He chia us. heheh. Met some people there too.
These gals are nice and friendly..and can be siaw.hahah It's a nice day spending with them. ^^ But the weather jinjiasisibehjuak lo~~~
After lunch, Albee led me to Modka, which is near to '4 small' there for our printing. Took a little moment at there due to Albee's "eye".hahah Then i rushed home to get my mounting board and went to Techno Graphic opposite my home to look for our things. I went to pump oil too, 4 of us don't know how to pump.hahah Then Albee helped me. It's 4 something already, we rushed back to uni to meet up Mike and mount our posters. It was my first time stepping into the hostel too. Quite nice actually. They asked me want to move in into hostel not. HAHA After some time done with the mounting thing, Mike asked us to go uni's open-air yumcha. He chia us. heheh. Met some people there too.
These gals are nice and friendly..and can be siaw.hahah It's a nice day spending with them. ^^ But the weather jinjiasisibehjuak lo~~~
Saturday, April 10
Monday, April 5
OneTwoThree.
This week I'm going to get myself busy already. Say NO to Slackin', say YES to Workin'! LOL Tasks to be done or have to do : (1) Sketch 3 posters, and start design and get the outcome by next week after approval from Roy. (2) Design my own font. Can get a mysterious prize from Roy for the best one. Definitely not me. (3) Search for a painting in MOMA webby for Context & Culture's ass.. Shall start doing it after complete my posters.
Well, my sketching part is almost complete now. I need my bro's help on one of the piece of the drawings. Haiz..what a failure designer. ;( But at least the ideas are originally from me! That helps some right? ;) I hope that I'm doing the right way and the outcome can be like what I've imagined. Will post up the pictures after I'm done with them. (if it's viewable.LOL) Haveta make myself practice more on my drawing already. Had a GREAT laugh on my drawing with bro just now.>,<
It's cool that the house now is having TWO designers. =) And if my eldest bro counts, that makes THREE! =D
Well, my sketching part is almost complete now. I need my bro's help on one of the piece of the drawings. Haiz..what a failure designer. ;( But at least the ideas are originally from me! That helps some right? ;) I hope that I'm doing the right way and the outcome can be like what I've imagined. Will post up the pictures after I'm done with them. (if it's viewable.LOL) Haveta make myself practice more on my drawing already. Had a GREAT laugh on my drawing with bro just now.>,<
It's cool that the house now is having TWO designers. =) And if my eldest bro counts, that makes THREE! =D
Sunday, April 4
Movies night out.
Finally just got myself settled down. It's a good night tonight, as I get myself to hang out. Me, Exian, Ken, and 4 of his friends watch the 3D of Clash of the Titans. All I can say it's like 'Percy Jackson'. LOL and the 3D part, sucks. Wasted our money, nothing much or special about it. BOOO!
*3 of us just got our new glasses..we got the same one, idk why....o.x
Then, after the movie, it's 8 something already. *bak doh iao* Met cindy there with her bf, and some familiar people. We plan and plan where to eat and what to do. At first I suggest to go Pumpkin and then Pool a round, but then maybe Ken's friends are shy, so they didn't join us. 3 of us just head to Kim Bay for our late dinner then. Met with my bro and his friends there, so zun. They watching Clash at 10.45pm. Then Exian came out with an idea that we watch 2nd round. How to Train Your Dragon is our choice! Same showtime, and I can follow my bro home too later. So, that makes our decision. ;D While Exian goes to buy ticks, Ken told me his friends thought Exian is my bf. hahaha!
After we have our dinner, it's just 9.30. We plan to go Apple store to use their internet. haha But then, we can't connect to the web. Think they know our purposes already. LOL We touch here touch there till they 'hit goat'. Then, nothing to do, we go up to MBO and wait outside till it's 10.45. ==" we bought ourselves a lollipop. wee~ nicenice! I don't mean the loli is nice, I just like the feel that we are doing something together. Can catch me? ;D Then a sudden urge make me call babe. haha weee~ chokchok de her.hahah *miss yuh~ Some of the people there passing by look at me, idk why, maybe I'm alone talking on the phone with a loli on my righty. LOL Saw Edmund too, can say is my...childhood friend, or something similar. Saw Cindy and bro, AGAIN. Then, it's time to get in! *Finally.
*we got lollis~~
*camwhore outside the hall. ;) Ken threw his loli dy..i asked him to pretend pretend there.
In conclusion, a great night! and and, Clash of the Titans just so-so, whereas How To Train Your Dragon, ON!!! Thumbs up thumbs up!! Damn cute lo Toothless! The eyes so big! hahahah >,<
P/S: Exian fall asleep in a cute and nice movie! duh him..LOL
*3 of us just got our new glasses..we got the same one, idk why....o.x
Then, after the movie, it's 8 something already. *bak doh iao* Met cindy there with her bf, and some familiar people. We plan and plan where to eat and what to do. At first I suggest to go Pumpkin and then Pool a round, but then maybe Ken's friends are shy, so they didn't join us. 3 of us just head to Kim Bay for our late dinner then. Met with my bro and his friends there, so zun. They watching Clash at 10.45pm. Then Exian came out with an idea that we watch 2nd round. How to Train Your Dragon is our choice! Same showtime, and I can follow my bro home too later. So, that makes our decision. ;D While Exian goes to buy ticks, Ken told me his friends thought Exian is my bf. hahaha!
After we have our dinner, it's just 9.30. We plan to go Apple store to use their internet. haha But then, we can't connect to the web. Think they know our purposes already. LOL We touch here touch there till they 'hit goat'. Then, nothing to do, we go up to MBO and wait outside till it's 10.45. ==" we bought ourselves a lollipop. wee~ nicenice! I don't mean the loli is nice, I just like the feel that we are doing something together. Can catch me? ;D Then a sudden urge make me call babe. haha weee~ chokchok de her.hahah *miss yuh~ Some of the people there passing by look at me, idk why, maybe I'm alone talking on the phone with a loli on my righty. LOL Saw Edmund too, can say is my...childhood friend, or something similar. Saw Cindy and bro, AGAIN. Then, it's time to get in! *Finally.
*we got lollis~~
*camwhore outside the hall. ;) Ken threw his loli dy..i asked him to pretend pretend there.
In conclusion, a great night! and and, Clash of the Titans just so-so, whereas How To Train Your Dragon, ON!!! Thumbs up thumbs up!! Damn cute lo Toothless! The eyes so big! hahahah >,<
P/S: Exian fall asleep in a cute and nice movie! duh him..LOL
Friday, April 2
Hehehehh
mmm~ Tonight there's a feeling that is back to me again. I'm sorry for not finding you these days, and you know the reason already. ;) Sorry for letting you to miss me!!! wahahahahah Happy~ and of course I do miss you too. I hope that tomorrow or the next few days I won't feel being treated 'coldly', like what I've told you, and you say it won't be. ;)It's a happy night for me. Thanks. xoxo. ♥
P/S: idk why, i cant edit the color, font,those in my blog tonite. ==
P/S: idk why, i cant edit the color, font,those in my blog tonite. ==
Thursday, April 1
Azuar's class.
Talk about the museum trip yesterday, it's just okay, not THAT much excitement though. It's my first time, although I'm a Kuchingnite. =p It's funny that few of us who are Kuchingnite don't really know the route. So we follow each other behind. Benjamin is the 1st, I'm the 2nd, 3rd I don't know her name and 4th is Damien. I saw Benjamin drove into a wrong direction's route, I don't know what to do, just follow. Who knows those at the back following too! hahahah! Then suddenly he accelerates! Damien too, potong us.LOL They speed toward the green light while me and the other car have to stop because of the red light. Luckily I know the route lo..chou Benjamin,he said he purposely did it. booooolala~
Then, we walk to the museum, I don't really know the name. Look around like sakai, actually still okay la, get to see few different paintings, crafts, fish?, and so on. Got few paintings really attract me.When we get to the different 'building' or something, Azuar gives us task to complete. We have to get the answers in the museum. Some need drawings, mine kanasai ('like shit') lo (macam sehkia drawing).haiz~ After those, we go back to uni then. And I realized that we forgot to take our group photo. aihs~
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So about today, nothing much on the Context & Culture though, but fun.hehe Azuar wants us to draw a portrait of the person sitting next to us, in 5 minutes. *oamgee,idonohowtodrawwei!!* Then I turn and look at my 'partner' and smile, he's an 'artistic' international student I can say, because he knows quite much about those famous famous artist like, .... hmmm..see, I don't really know who I can say out except for Leonardo da Vinci, Michaelangelo, Picasso, Man...dono and...like whaaaaat?
==" okay, then he starts to draw me, I was like *die, how am i going to control my hand?* then I just roughly find something and sketch, I look at him, and think coz I'm focusing on how to draw the 'feel', he asks me "why aren't u drawing?" me laugh, "yeah, i am..." .... look at him, "im honest with you, that I don't know how to draw." He,"nah-it's-okay-something-like-that." I don't complete mine for sure, but he completes his, and gave it to me. It's in my file still.haha (first time people drawing a portrait of mine bahr... :x)Then I sign my undone work and gave it to him, with a "Happy April Fool~" thing on it, he laughs. hehe
After some boring lectures, we still got about 2 hours time. We get a short break and I just chit-chat and joke with them. Later, Azuar suggest to let us watch a movie. cool~ It's a French film, something about art, love, comedy. Really funny in some of the parts. HAHAHAHA stupid, but i like. and it has 18SX sceneS summore..LOL but I find it boring too at the same time. We don't finish the film till next week, as it's a 2 hours plus film. cool class I'm having these 2 days~ lml ^o^ lml
P/S: no pictures available, bad huh? ><
Then, we walk to the museum, I don't really know the name. Look around like sakai, actually still okay la, get to see few different paintings, crafts, fish?, and so on. Got few paintings really attract me.When we get to the different 'building' or something, Azuar gives us task to complete. We have to get the answers in the museum. Some need drawings, mine kanasai ('like shit') lo (macam sehkia drawing).haiz~ After those, we go back to uni then. And I realized that we forgot to take our group photo. aihs~
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So about today, nothing much on the Context & Culture though, but fun.hehe Azuar wants us to draw a portrait of the person sitting next to us, in 5 minutes. *oamgee,idonohowtodrawwei!!* Then I turn and look at my 'partner' and smile, he's an 'artistic' international student I can say, because he knows quite much about those famous famous artist like, .... hmmm..see, I don't really know who I can say out except for Leonardo da Vinci, Michaelangelo, Picasso, Man...dono and...like whaaaaat?
==" okay, then he starts to draw me, I was like *die, how am i going to control my hand?* then I just roughly find something and sketch, I look at him, and think coz I'm focusing on how to draw the 'feel', he asks me "why aren't u drawing?" me laugh, "yeah, i am..." .... look at him, "im honest with you, that I don't know how to draw." He,"nah-it's-okay-something-like-that." I don't complete mine for sure, but he completes his, and gave it to me. It's in my file still.haha (first time people drawing a portrait of mine bahr... :x)Then I sign my undone work and gave it to him, with a "Happy April Fool~" thing on it, he laughs. hehe
After some boring lectures, we still got about 2 hours time. We get a short break and I just chit-chat and joke with them. Later, Azuar suggest to let us watch a movie. cool~ It's a French film, something about art, love, comedy. Really funny in some of the parts. HAHAHAHA stupid, but i like. and it has 18SX sceneS summore..LOL but I find it boring too at the same time. We don't finish the film till next week, as it's a 2 hours plus film. cool class I'm having these 2 days~ lml ^o^ lml
P/S: no pictures available, bad huh? ><
Wednesday, March 31
Draw with a mouse.
Well, last week I was learning Illustration (tracing) in my Design Studies. At first I was really blur with it, but I really don't know why yesterday night when i tried it again, i worked it quite well. Genius maybe? =) *jokes~ Hopefully I still remember the steps. And here (picture below) is the outcome of what I've done using the software, which made me pissed off few times because of the installation. Grrrrr.... >:(
The actual picture.
The illustrate one. (undone) Using the old version of software, unattractive and 'old' for me. I'm going to change it into a newer version soon. This have to sacrifice my Windows 7 into Vista. ><>
And oh, we are learning Photoshop today. They are totally new things for me. >< Hope that I can get handy with them soon. =) We are told to do 3 posters for our assignment for this subject too. Have to brainstorm soon, and the worst part is, we got only 2 weeks time since today. ohmamamiya~ sei for (die fire - die liao la)... But it's still early to say die la, as there are still degree and future job waiting for me to die for. =)
Monday, March 29
消失的傻理由
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“爱 在世上是最尖锐和坚固的东西。。。
不需花费很大的力气，就足以杀害一刻怦怦跳跳的心。。。”
-se7enpoinsix.
如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不
如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不会认真地用心地看我空
如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不会在半夜突然醒来，想
如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不会每天开着MSN等我
如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不会看那无聊的喜剧流泪
如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不会在街上走的时候想到
如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不会在最快乐的时候想到
如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不会觉得你是想我的，其
如果有一天，我突然消失了，我一定不会回头…而你要忘了
是不是我真的消失了，你才会发觉身边有个我？
是不是我真的消失了，你才会想起来珍惜我？
是不是我真的消失了，你才知道怎样来珍惜我？
是不是我真的消失了，你才会感觉到当初我是多么得珍惜你
是不是我真的消失了，你才舍得给我一丝可怜？你才会明白
是不是我真的消失了，你才懂得什么是真正的爱……
如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不会认真地用心地看我空
如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不会在半夜突然醒来，想
如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不会每天开着MSN等我
如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不会看那无聊的喜剧流泪
如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不会在街上走的时候想到
如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不会在最快乐的时候想到
如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不会觉得你是想我的，其
如果有一天，我突然消失了，我一定不会回头…而你要忘了
是不是我真的消失了，你才会发觉身边有个我？
是不是我真的消失了，你才会想起来珍惜我？
是不是我真的消失了，你才知道怎样来珍惜我？
是不是我真的消失了，你才会感觉到当初我是多么得珍惜你
是不是我真的消失了，你才舍得给我一丝可怜？你才会明白
是不是我真的消失了，你才懂得什么是真正的爱……
这是我在面书里看到的一篇‘短文’。。？其实我也想说，过去的我，曾经也有想过类似的问题。。是不是等我真的消失了，才能‘看到’你为了我而流泪，‘体会’我对你的重要，你才能了解我 为你而存在在你身边。。但看来，自己真的很傻，我也得学习面对，和接受一切都变得过去式了。说了放下，就放下吧。。。如果时间能倒转的话，我希望我能改变一些事。。
Careless mistake.
haihs..I'm so mad with myself. Why I didn't check everything properly before getting mad or blame on someone, it was not my style, really. urgh...it was really a careless mistake. I knew my mistake, I apologized to them. The lady was quite nice though. haihs...self-blamed. And they even help me with my problem. Thanks them. It was really embarrassing. My mom too, embarrassed me. -,-
Sigh... hate and tired with myself, for not being dare enough too. How can I go to overseas like that? ='(
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And I met a new friend today. Steph aka Stephanie, a friendly and cute Indonesia-Chinese. Guess what? We share the SAME birth date! cool right? =p But she's a lil older for 365 days than me. But it's still awesome, and I don't know why I'm so excited about it.^^ Well, it's really nice to know her.
Sunday, March 28
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Hannah Montana the movie triggered me to wonder who actually needs me... and who actually will be by my side when I need someone to be there. hmm~ Robbie Ray is a great dad. I actually tried and wanted to be by someone's side, but I guess now I'm just an extra thang...
Thursday, March 25
It's another day.
Today is the 3rd day of class for me, and it's the last day for this week. Free much? LOLs. Went to school around 1pm+. Quite full the parking slots..-,- needa drove up the MSC. Then, today met with Natasha, a friendly pretty gal from KK, Shane aka Shanelka (sorry, I don't really know how to spell ur name yet.), a pretty international student(sorry again, I don't remember and know where's the place :x) and also Peter, a tall guy from Sarikei. Nice to meet them afterall.=) Today Azuar taught us about the different characteristics of both Leonardo da Vinci and Michaelangelo. Quite boring at first.=x And there's a few of new faces in the class too, mostly international's.
And, I can't wait till next Wednesday!! We are going for a half day trip at the museum!! yayy~~ cool much!! love it. *but I don't really know how to drive there.opps* and that's the moment I realized that doing engineering last year was really really boring. :x
Yeeha~ Hope we do have FUN around there! I think Natasha and Peter will, as they gonna change into pro photographers that day. cool~ *can teach me??? hahaha
Tuesday, March 23
First Day for a DS.
It's the first day of a new semester for me today. Went to U earlier to meet those old buddies. The libraries, parking places, open dine, everywhere were so crowded. Saw about 90% of new faces. (I din't explore that much of places.) We chatted quite loud in the library, especially me..haha I suddenly miss those days. :( and now I'm all alone. haihs~ Well, life goes on. Hopefully I can be more independent, out-going and brave after this all-alone-thingy.
Well, talk about the first class, I really felt so isolated when I realised that 95% of them are actually from the same group last semester. They are like buddies, joke around, even with the last semester's lecturer, Azuar, and the current new lecturer, Roy. But, I can't deny that they both are great lecturers! They were only 25, and they treat us like friends, from what I see till this moment. Azuar even brought them to a trip or something last semester. cool. And I think they are planning one, soon. wee~ Hopefully for my group in my current-mixed-sem, he will bring us too. =) cool and funny lecturers they are. They even going for dinner tonight with some of the students, but I'm not joining, as I'm not in the 'gang' yet. :x
During the class, we self-introduced ourselves, like kids huh? haha but at least it made me knew who my course mates are, and from where. Quite a few from KK, then 1 from Jakarta, and 1 from Taiwan!! wow~ I hope I can remember some of their names. Guess what? There's 3 ''Michelle's" in the room! cool much? But one was absent today.aww After i introduced myself, the lecturer, Roy, asked, "Is your part time job saving people?" "uh? why?!" I'm blur that moment, then i realized that I'm wearing my SuperGirl's Tee! hahaha nice one Roy! Then we played some 'game', more like an activity, lecturer Azuar wanted us to walk in different WAYS from Point A to Point B without repetition. The objective of this is that he wanted us to think that we can do a thing with lots of ideas, and not only by walking straightly, something like that. We played it for 3 rounds. LOL Firstly, I walked zig-zagly. Roy asked me to do in a Superman way, then I asked, "fly over? *with a Superman sign*" lol.they laughed. Then secondly, I got myself a partner, Albee, to 'dance'-over-with-Waltz style.haha Thirdly, again, partner-ed with Albee, with the Supermodel-walking-along-the-carpet-and-the-photographer-kept-on-following-and-shooting-style.HAH! 0hya, Albee, a Sibu gal, was the first friend I talked to today. Not bad la..*keep going chele* In a short while, the room really got crazy..lols! I like it~ With two of the manga-super-fans, they did something like 'Shunpo' thing. OMG! We all burst into laughters! I noticed that one of them acted weirdly all the time, they kept laughing or teasing him. :x
Oh well, it's quite a great class I can say, hope that I can get along with them. (Their angmo are geng too! >,<)
And Roy was right, we need to have passion on design, not just liking it. We also need to have a vision for what we are doing, so that we know what we want. Yeah, I totally agree with it. I hope that Multimedia Design, careers in digital film and video production or creating animation or effects those in a film, is what I'm looking for and want. Although I can't really draw well *sighh*, someday, I hope to be a professional, and get into an ideal production team. My vision. *atm. =)
P/S: I wana upload some pictures so that it won't be too black and white. But, stupid line stops me. grrrrrrr
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